TP Chorale camp

TP Choir camp's tmr!! I'm kinda stoked for it actually hahah.

But things I don't like bout camp is limited time and dirty clothes. Or maybe I'm just that lazy heh heh heh :P

Anyways, the thought of missing service again tmr is just.... At least I hope camp will be fun!

WHY ISN'T TWITTER AVAILABLE. TWITTER, Y U KEEP SAYING "THIS WEBPAGE IS NOT AVAILABLE"?! Kanna sai lah haha.

Oh and I just remembered last time Sharm said that I look decent and demure but then once I open my mouth the demure-ness is gone LOL. I really speak until so rough meh? :/ Maybe I do just that I don't notice it or too used to it :X

Oh and I've calculated my pay. I thought I can escape CPF cos I'm working very little this month. Who knows sales can be so good until overshot 500 -.- Now -20% *cries* Heh I'll be able to use that money when I'm 65 though zzzz lol.

My dreams of getting Samsung Galaxy S3 was dashed.. I rmb when my colleague just bought it last week I was ooh-ing and ahh-ing over it. But at least I'll be getting LG Optimus L7 instead, not bad also :)

I spent 1/2 trying to connect to the internet in school just now.. And didn't connect in the end cos I was very frustrated already and ended up playing Mahjong Titans on my laptop to pass time instead HAHA while waiting for KahYen.

Thank God for letting me see a post on Facebook just now called "Letter To Heaven". It's a pic actually. Cos in the train otw home I listened to Tongiht by FM Static and thought of my Grandma.. Then when I came back home I saw this :



Yes, thank You for the comfort Lord, you work in wonderful ways :)

Oh and CONGLE, if you're seeing this (most likely you won't, unless you got stalk me? ^^) HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!! Sorry I meant to write this post before 12am but alas it's 12am so it's 22 June already :/ Haha I'm really glad I met you and I remembered when I was waiting for you to faster come back from the toilet the first day we met. THEN YOU COULDN'T RMB WHERE THE STAFF ENTRANCE WAS LOL. I was thinking, wah this girl so blur sia  Turns out I'm even more blur than you are -.- hahahah. And I went to buy water for you from SASA okay!! Anyways thanks for being my friend and enduring my crap and nonsense ;) M18 already sia!! Haha enjoy your time in camp, don't worry, I'm sure you'll love having your birthday in camp :)


What am I doing still awake at this hour.. I should be doing CSA at least!! Right I'll get started now..

Bye!!

Missing Piece ; Love

These 2 songs have been stuck in my head for quite a while. esp Love :)

If you don't want me in your life, that's alright. All I ever did was bring you misery in the first place. It's better  this way. I don't want to cause any further unhappiness and complications. I'll just slowly move away, I'll let you be happier. I'll make up for the past by not appearing in your life any longer. You deserve so much better. But just remember, I'm still here yeah, if you ever need me.

Oh and Idk if I mentioned this before, but during my Grandma's wake last year, my cousin Faustina mentioned to me that she didn't seem to have much wrinkles compared to last time. Then we go look inside her coffin. And alas, she really didn't seem to have wrinkles :O Before that, in the hopsital, when her coma wasn't so bad, Faustina kept touching her forehead too and mentioned it was really smooth. Then I went to touch and alas, it really was smooth. Lol dk if we noticed it before. But in her last days, her wrinkles seem to have disappeared.. Maybe she wasn't frowning as much as last time?

But I know that this perhaps may be God :) Ever since she accepted Jesus into her life (which was a week before she passed away I THINK? Can't remember sorry :(.. ) she stopped frowning and her wrinkles seemed to be disappearing. Lolol thank God :)

Why I suddenly mention this is that today was Parents' Day is church. Thanks Mummy and Daddy for everything for so many years :) And church showed one vid about the a younger generation guy not understanding why his parents wanna take care of his Grandma since she caused them so much trouble, and why they were sad when her condition in the hospital was critical. He was disrespectful to her at times. Then they showed a flashback. When his Dad was sick with fever, his Grandma ran in the rain to get him to the hospital. She was so concerned for him.
That made me think of my own Grandma. Bringing up my Mum, Aunties and Uncles. There were times I was disrespectful to her, and I regret it but there's nothing I can do. She knows I don't mean it I think. Anyway, she's in a much much much MUCH happier, joyful, blissful and peaceful place now :)

I'll always miss you Ah Ma, but I know I'll be seeing you again someday. And I love you :)

Mid-sem tests starts tmr.. READY SET GO!!! #GodWillGuideUsThroughThisNoFear

I'm sorry

I'm really sorry. I didn't ever mean to hurt you. I thought you'd take it lightly.. But I'm not faking it, I'm not giving excuses, but I really laughed because I found it funny. You're my bestie, that's why. If I played your role, would you laugh too? I just found it very unexpected. It's not that your role was ridiculous or whatever, it's because you're my friend. Yes, you'll say that if you're my friend I wouldn't laugh at you, but it's quite natural. You'll say I'm mean but really, when you're friends with someone you'll find it hilarious. And just so you know, I was genuinely shocked and my laughter wasn't fake. There comes a point in friendship when you insult and make fun of your friends and both parties won't feel anything, and that's how I felt. I didn't think it would affect you, I thought you'd just laugh too. When you laughed at me during cross country, I wasn't upset or anything. That's why I didn't understand why it'd affect you. I make fun of my other friends too, but that's not being mean or intentionally hurting them. I just didn't know that it would hurt you like that, and I'm really sorry.

I don't know if you'll forgive me but I'm really sincere with this apology.

I heard you call my name

Ytd night was extraordinary.

Idk why but when I went to bed different songs and different events were playing in my head and my head was just so cluttered. Then I felt I haven't been spending time with God lately. And when I got to bed and lie down, I heard a voice in my head calling my name "Cynthia!". This voice was clear and the moment it spoke, every thought in my mind IMMEDIATELY vanished. My mind just became clear. When I first heard it, I felt it was God and the fear of God came to me. I almost thought I died since my mind was so clear.

Thank you for this wake up call Lord. Idk if I'm thinking too much or if it's You. But the first thought I had when I heard this voice was of You. Thank You so much Lord for waking me up from spiritual sleep before it's too late. Help me to keep the promise I made to You last year. Help me to spend more time with You and ALWAYS put You as my FIRST PRIORITY. For I should honour You, cos You are the Lord my God, and I love You with all my heart, all my mind and all my soul. Your love and grace is always enough for me, and You are supernatural, unfailing and AWESOME AWESOME AWESOMEST GOD THAT ANYONE CAN EVER ASK FOR. You are the One, You are our Creator, You are our Saviour. You are Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Faithfulness and Self-control. You are an all-consuming fire. You are EVERYTHING.

I can feel your supernatural presence just like how I always felt it in the past. I shouldn't harp on the past but then I know that You are here, You are always here for us all, for me. Help me to always want more and more of You, let my hunger and thirst for You never be fulfilled cos I want MORE AND MORE for YOU Lord.

So I'll pray this prayer to you everyday :
Dear God, I pray for protection, peace, security, safety and love from You, to us, among us.
I pray that You help us in our everyday lives, give us the strength, courage and love to carry on no matter what comes our way.
And thank You so so much for everything. Everything you have blessed us with, just simply Everything in our lives :)
Pls forgive us of our sins, help us to break free of the bondages of sin, for in YOUR NAME, darkness trembles and tries to hide. We repent before You today and ask for Your forgiveness.
I pray that You pls guide us, be the shepard in our lives, help us be the shining star for You in this world.
And I love You, we all do love You with all our hearts, minds and souls.
In Jesus' name I pray,
AMEN!! :D

So I'll give my life to You, just take it from me Lord, for I do not know what I'm doing with it but You know what's best for me and have my whole life planned out. Take me, my life, all that I am for the glory of You, Your name and Your kingdom :)

<3



I can hear you 
You're calling my name 
The ocean between us erased 

And salvation 
It pours down like rain 
Flooding my walls till I break 

I give my life to you 
My heart to you 
You're all I need 
Come and make me new 

I abandon 
The weight of my sin 
The weight of my loss and my pain 

Relief swells 
Like air in my lungs 
And freedom releases my shame 

Jesus Christ, take our lives 
We won't waste another day 
Holy God, fill our hearts 
We won't ever be the same

Your love never fails

Your love never fails, Lord! :D

You have blessed us abundantly and I thank you so much each and every single day for keeping us safe, protected, peaceful, happy, and basically for everything in our lives :) I love you Lord <3

Jayesslee concert

So ytd I went to Jayesslee concert woohoo!!!
They really do sound better live than in their vids! This is called true talent :)
I love how they gave credit and honour to God for their success, like they're really genuine about it, can tell they're really nice people! :)
I still have some remnants of the Jayesslee chop on the back of my hand haha.
And thank you Bro, for bringing me to this concert, now I really do know what is true talent :)



This is their breakthrough cover :) And also my favourite song from ytd night :)

Also, congrats to Sam Driscoll and Toh Yifan for performing for the opening act of the Youtube Stars concert!!



And anyways, school's fine, I just really don't like CSA (Computer Systems & Applications). Just gotta endure sigh..
I really thank God for blessing me with nice classmates!! Even though the subjects in school may be a little challenging, but I'm really determined to score very well to get into a local Uni. I aim for at least a 3.8 GPA, and I believe it's possible with God's strength!! :) Life is gonna be alright, as long as you hand it over to Him, for He knows what's best for us :) It's really His grace that life is awesome :)

Dear bestie

Dear bestie,

Yes indeed maybe you have been wondering why I haven't gotten back to you. And I am also wondering why you haven't gotten back to me. We are both thinking about it very thoroughly? That's my guess.

But I guess now I know the answer. You hate me don't you. Everything I've done was just to make you upset, I suppose this is how you feel. I don't blame you. Cos I'm an insensitive prick who doesn't know how to comfort people and my words are like daggers. I hadn't been sensitive to you and everyone so I constantly make others frustrated cos of that. And I've said I'll change, and I felt I have, but Idk why you didn't see it at first. Now I see it. Everyday I'm acting like a happy kiddo while my best friend is at her lowest and upset about our friendship. I don't blame you, it's me who's at fault. I'm constantly making you depressed and making you choose the wrong decisions in life. Everything was done for me and yet I didn't notice it.

But now I'm asking you to give our friendship one last chance. This will be a test of whether we can be besties for a very long time, hopefully for life. Like you hope that it won't be short-lived, I do too. No, I may not show it but I really do love you. I love hanging out with you and spending time tgt. You're gonna scoff at this but this is true. You might or might not believe it, but this is 101% true.

Please, I'm asking you to reconsider. If you think having me in your life is just gonna make you more depressed, I'm not gonna force you or anything. But all I'm asking for is one last shot at this friendship. This is what I really want.

Please? <3