Longest

Caroling was awesome! (:
Had a minor hiccups here and there though.
But I think it was okay since everyone was in the happy and jolly and merry Christmas mood :D
haha :)

Merry Christmas Eve! :D
haha, tmr is Christmas! WOOTS!
looking forward to family gatherings later and tmr! :D
later cooking with Mum for family gathering! haha :D
I'M REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO SEEING EVERYONE AGAIN :DDD
haha! :D





these 2 songs are how I feel now. since ytd. since Idk how long ago..

Why oh Why.
Can't you see my feelings for you?
It's so obvious. Why can't you see it?
I've liked you since July.
Do you know that you're one of the longest? Do you know how much you've changed my life this year? Do you know how heartbroken I felt and feel? Do you know how much I really like you?
Getting over you may be hard. We're like Brother and Sister to each other now, and I don't wanna spoil that awesome friendship we have. I really love you as a friend, and you're a friend who knows me inside out. One of the best guy friends I ever had. And I don't wanna let li shi chong yan. You're my Brother now, and I don't wanna spoil that by telling you my true feelings for you.
I wonder, does she make you laugh and smile like I do? Does she have that much fun with you? Does she bother about your feelings? Maybe it's cos she doesn't know, but I think that she doesn't bring that much joy to you like I do.
I'm selfish saying this, but I can't help it.
It's so discouraging, it's so disheartening, it's so heartbreaking.
You play a major role in my teenage life, you're the one who understands and know me inside out, one of the first guy friends to ever make me feel like this.
You made me feel like I'm living a teenage dream.
But I wonder why, why those these kind of idiotic things always happen near Christmas? Last year also like that, this year also like that. This year is worse, nearer to Christmas.
Oh boy, if only you knew.
But I can't tell you. I can't. I just can't.. I can't tell you cos it'll spoil our friendship. Our awesome Bro-Sis friendship and relationship.
I love you so much as a friend, and I don't want another friendship to be broken..
I'm gonna be strong no matter what, I'm gonna be strong and keep our friendship strong too.
I'm gonna get over you, and be a strong girl.
I'm never gonna shed tears for a guy again. Never ever.
I'm gonna be strong.
But... is this just a brave facade? One moment I tell myself that I'm gonna be strong, but the next second I'm totally emo shit and wanting to cry again..
I'm so young, still only 15 years old, and I know I shouldn't care about these kind of things at my age, but I just can't help it.
I really can't do it. And I need courage.
Help me Lord, give me courage, happiness, joy and peace in my life.
I need to have courage to get over you, and still keep you as my best guy friend.
You are my best guy friend, and I love you for that.
I'm gonna be strong yo.