After today.. I really felt I was being so bad and harsh. I'm so sorry for everything.. For the unforgiveness, the grudge and I feel this guilt etched so deep in my heart that if I don't apologise or start treating you better, I will die of guilt. I'm so sorry, why did I do that today? If you were hurt by my actions I'm really sorry. It's just.. I can't let go of the past. If you put yourself in my shoes you'd be angry too... right? I realised it's because of that unwillingness to let it go that unforgiveness came into my life and made me unable to forgive you. But hey I'm not perfect either, I must accept the fact that everyone makes mistakes. So if I've hurt you with my actions today, I'm terribly sorry Y. And whether you see this or not, I wanna let you know that deep down you've still got a friend in me, like what I wrote in the Christmas card (that is, if you still remember). I focused on all the bad stuff that happened and didn't think about the good stuff. Times we've spent tgt definitely was great and fun, and Idk abt you, but like what I said earlier, you've always got a friend in me. I'm just pissed and my action today was "in the moment" kinda thing. I'm so sorry, and pls don't get offended. I really do hope you'll understand. It's just that these few months, the whole thing's been weighing down on my pretty much and every night I feel this burden in my heart and I just feel like crying everytime I think about it you know? But what's done is done. It's all in the past. I must let go of it and bear no grudges. I'm sorry for everything I've done. You're one of the nicest people I know, and I hope you don't make the same mistake again. Choose wisely and carefully, and always think again before doing smth. I will treat you nicer from now on, and once again, I'm terribly sorry if my pissy actions made you feel bad. Don't blame yourself for whatever happened yeah? And I honestly do hope you can find someone you'll appreciate you for you.
Once again, I'm sorry.
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