Where there is a will, there is a way.

Idk I'm just hurt by it. The feeling is indescribable. It may not be real, but still.. The thought annoyed me and only today I realised one word to describe everything I'm feeling inside is "hurt". Yes, if anything, it'd be hurt. Idk why I just am. You did nothing, absolutely nothing to make me feel this way. It's just me. Idk why but I've been feeling so lost nowadays. And the worst thing is I don't even know what made me feel like this -_- Ultimate fail lolol.
So many things happening at the same time.. Feeling torn apart inside, cranky and annoyed.... But then again, thank God for awesome friends and advisors who really listened and advised. Without these people, I really dk what to do.. You know who you are ;) Thank you... :')
I'm just gonna turn it all to God. After all, He knows best. My future's secured in His hands. Whether it works out or not, Idk, but I'm trusting it all to Him.

Our God is greater, our God is stronger, God You are higher than any other. Our God is healer, awesome in power, our God our God.


If you choose to lock your heart away, you'll lose it for certain. –Jack Sparrow (Pirates of the Caribbean)
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Anyways on a brighter note, went to gym with Lauren and watch Step Up Revolution with Dayna ytd!! :) Omg it was soooo good and Spaghetti Goemon's super awesome!! (Y)

Oh and on Monday we went for Sarah's bday party :) I feel so bad.. Rah if you ever read this, once again, we're really sorry :/ It was good that you had a great time though, and that's what matters!! :) Rock on man.. 17 years of friendship and much, much more to come. Really, best friends for life, ever since babies. Love you Sarah Chiang :D

Oh and on Sunday after service with KahYen, met up with her and CongLe :)) At Chinatown!! Bought a top from OM. It has pretty musical notes on it woohoo!! (Y) I feel bad for not being able to stay long :/ Sorry girls!! :/

And really stoked to catch up with bro Quak on Sat. Gonna be awesome and filled with the latest gossips that I've been missing up on cos I've graduated already HAHA. Whoops okay now I feel bad :/ Repent repent! :S

Ohh and gonna meet the girls Eunice, Tika, Yuqing and I hope Gillian can come on Tuesday!! Sooooo stoked man, gonna be an awesome catch-up session!! :D Really miss Sec Sch peeps, just seeing them, whether meeting up or unexpectedly, makes me extremely happy :')

Yeah now I'm starting to regret not going for The Wanted.. One of the hardest decisions I had to make this year. I told myself, if need be, I'll just go myself. Looks like that isn't happening after all. But this is for the better.. Till next year or next time lads.

Oh and just watched The Prince Of Egypt on Youtube hehe. Super awesomeeee!! (Y) Got reminded of how powerful and mighty awesome the Lord is :)

Woah crap the rats downstairs just made a very loud squeak ><

Oh and all the best to those taking N Levels now, and for those taking Os soon as well!! :)




I wonder if I've changed for the better or for the worse? I've changed, everyone has. But I just wonder... For the better or for the worse? I'd like to think it's for the better, but then again, I can't deceive myself now can I?

什么是生命中的美好?

Lord

Just realised I haven't posted in ages lol. So I'm gonna do a post now before I sleep cos I just feel like it yay (Y)

Now's Poly's holidays so I'm enjoying and slacking with friends :P Working, but not much I think and Idk when I'll be working too cos my schedule's not given to me yet. And right now my stomach is growling so loudly but I'm just gonna sleep it away.

So life has been great so far, projects submissions and presentations were over one by one, and exams are over too. Hallelujah and praise the Lord and thank God for the strength He has given us to complete these :) I seriously think Poly has taken at least half of my lifespan away -.- Dark eye circles deepened by a lot, and pimples increased a lot too (I'm super sad cos it's at its worst now :( .....) Yep and I've grown horizontally too, I became more lazy and ate a lot more :P But I'm gonna go gyming tmr so it's not so bad I hope! At least I have determination to keep fit woohoo!! (Y) I hope I'll keep this up :D Ohh and thank God for awesome classmates and groupmates He's blessed me with :) I'm really glad I got to know these awesome ppl and friends :)

Okay so recently on Teachers' Day celebration on 31 Dec, met Eunice for breakfast at Mac, went back to GM, met a few of my ex-classmates, schoolmates, juniors, seniors and teachers!! :) It was really nice seeing all the familiar faces again, and it felt good. Going back just brought back so much memories, good or bad. Followed by Imperfect (wo men dou by wan mei [cos I'm too lazy to type in Chinese :P]) which was really awesome!! Then lunch at Manhattans. And a visit to National Museum and ended up spending most of the time drawing what we thought Singapore was during the post-war era and about some strike cartoon. We were supposed to attend the arts night festival but we were too tired and ended up eating at Secret Recipe instead LOLOL.

I just got reminded that I should upload overdue pics asap LOL I haven't uploaded the pics from TP Choir's NDP performance whoops! :X

Recently there has been quite a few stuffs bugging me. I'm confused about everything's that's happening now. It all just came from different directions. I just pray that God will sort things out. I trust Him that something good will definitely come out from these. Thank You Lord. I put my faith, hope and trust in You. I'm handing everything over to You. Thank You for giving me great and awesome friends who are awesome advisors and counsellors. Thank You for bringing them into my life. I'm giving it all to You. I pray for others as well that You help them in whatever they're going through in their lives. Help me forget all those negative things and thoughts. In Jesus' name I pray, amen.

Joy unspeakable that won't go away, just enough strength to live for today, so I never have to worry about what tmr will bring, cos my faith is on solid rock, I AM COUNTING ON GOD!! :D In the miracle of Christ in me, is the mystery that sets me free. I'm nothing like I used to be. Open up your eyes and you'll see.
Lord help me make this my prayer daily to You, my promise I made to You. On that very day of the launch of Velocity, You touched my heart, my spirit. I felt something stirring up in me, I felt spiritually renewed, recharged and revived. Your presence was amazing. I never want to forsake You ever again. Help me not to make this mistake ever again. Help me to put You as my first priority. I'm sorry Lord for the things I've done, I've said and hurt. Thank You so much for I know I'm forgiven. Help me to change for You, it's all for You Lord.

I miss you

You may not know it, but I miss you so much. I miss your laughter, your presence around me that never fails to make me happy. Without you in my life I just feel an empty hole, like something's missing in my life. I wish to turn back time so all of these never happened. I wish I didn't cause you any misery at all and made life happy and easy for you. I wish I could've realised how impt it is to make a positive impact on someone's life, now that I instead caused you hurt. I know that sorry's not gonna help nor is it gonna change anything. I'm too ashamed even to face you. I just want you to know that, sincerely, from the bottom of my heart, I'm sorry and though I don't show it, I miss you really, really a lot. It's really like a hole without a treasure without you. I'm not sure how you feel, but I think I've done too many things that can't be forgiven. So if you wanna leave, I understand. I know you're gonna say like But just so you know, I'll be here for you.

Let it go

Hmm I just realised I haven't posted. Been procrastinating to blog, mainly cos of projects and all, but right now I'm in TP library and am tired ttm and can't sleep cos my arms aren't comfy and I didn't bring my jacket today so no pillow to rest my head on. Plus I wanna rest and relax a bit before going for CCA later. So I shall start on my Econs after this post hehe.

Firstly, I've been wanting to blog bout TP Choir Induction camp but haven't. It's awesome and was a lot of fun, just that after that my muscles ached like mad, esp stomach muscles hahahahah couldn't laugh without feeling pain for quite a few days after that.. Soooo my group was Tomato, and in the camp we had games, chamber practices and of cos, normal practice. At the end of the camp, each group was to put up an acapella performance of one of the 4 songs they chose for us. Drew lots and my group got Gotye's Somebody That I Used To Know. That song was stuck in my head for quite a while after that too, thanks to chamber practices :/ Although we were the last group (mainly pulled down by me LOL cos I couldn't do cartwheel for shit :X), we had the award for the best group cheer!! :)) We mixed the tune of Call Me Maybe with our own lyrics lolol and also had our very own cheer.
Soooo had fun for the camp!! :) 2 days 1 night camp totally worth it!! (Y)

Let it go, let it go. Don't blame yourself for the past. What's done is done, there's no way to turn it back. Don't beat yourself up over it. God will still accept you for who you are, and take a step of faith out of that dry boat onto the stormy sea to follow Jesus. Rather be a wet water-walker than a dry boat-rider. What I learnt from Jon Pritikin on Sunday! That dude is strong man. He tore a phonebook in half, lifted 2 girls on a steel bar and swung them around then bent it while using his teeth to support the steel bar, broke a baseball bat into two and rolled a frying pan up and broke off its handle. God's gift to this guy is super awesome hahaha he's so big and strong! And his wife has a beautiful voice <3 Plus his daughter's cute LOL :>

Live a life of "oh well" rather than a life of "what ifs"

Thanks to my classmates, I saw this on Twitter : Live a life of "oh well" rather than a life of "what ifs"

Thanks to whoever posted this cos I can't remember who posted it LOL but I know you're from B1B20!! :D

So yeahhhh... Just been thinking and wondering about some past events recently.
And I kept thinking, what if I said this instead of that, what if I did it instead of that.
What if I had told you how I felt back then, would we still be friends?

And then it dawned upon me, it's the past. We can't change whatever happened in the past. It's happened. It's called history for a reason. We can't turn back time, we just gotta make use of whatever time we have here to and make it the best, with God's guidance and help. Don't dwell on the past, don't live in the past. It's over for a reason.
Also, don't fantasize or think about the future, for only God knows what's gonna happen. Don't be like, oh what if I did this and that. No. Stop. Just don't think about it at all. No point fantasizing and thinking bout the future and don't live in the past. Just live in the moment, make the best of the present. This is gonna sound so cliche but that's why it's called the present, it's a gift from God hehe :)

I really like this pic a lot. Life is like a bridge. We need to cross over from one bridge to another. From the bridge you can see the city, and it represents opportunities, happiness, dreams etc etc. Everyone goes through different stages in your life, different difficulties, different trials. But we must focus our eyes on the big thing : the city. It means that though the walk through the bridge may be long and tiring, you can fix your eyes on the big thing, the opportunities, happiness, achievement, everything. And we can always look to the sky, for we will always be reminded there's a God who cares and who loves us unconditionally and will protect us and keep us safe and give us His peace and awesome presence :) So whenever life gets hard, just look up above! HAHAHA that was from my Bro's song lol.

So it's the past, I'll just learn from it. I'm glad we're still friends though.

That is why my Twitter background is this pic :)

And I'm damn in love with these songs (Y)

TP Chorale camp

TP Choir camp's tmr!! I'm kinda stoked for it actually hahah.

But things I don't like bout camp is limited time and dirty clothes. Or maybe I'm just that lazy heh heh heh :P

Anyways, the thought of missing service again tmr is just.... At least I hope camp will be fun!

WHY ISN'T TWITTER AVAILABLE. TWITTER, Y U KEEP SAYING "THIS WEBPAGE IS NOT AVAILABLE"?! Kanna sai lah haha.

Oh and I just remembered last time Sharm said that I look decent and demure but then once I open my mouth the demure-ness is gone LOL. I really speak until so rough meh? :/ Maybe I do just that I don't notice it or too used to it :X

Oh and I've calculated my pay. I thought I can escape CPF cos I'm working very little this month. Who knows sales can be so good until overshot 500 -.- Now -20% *cries* Heh I'll be able to use that money when I'm 65 though zzzz lol.

My dreams of getting Samsung Galaxy S3 was dashed.. I rmb when my colleague just bought it last week I was ooh-ing and ahh-ing over it. But at least I'll be getting LG Optimus L7 instead, not bad also :)

I spent 1/2 trying to connect to the internet in school just now.. And didn't connect in the end cos I was very frustrated already and ended up playing Mahjong Titans on my laptop to pass time instead HAHA while waiting for KahYen.

Thank God for letting me see a post on Facebook just now called "Letter To Heaven". It's a pic actually. Cos in the train otw home I listened to Tongiht by FM Static and thought of my Grandma.. Then when I came back home I saw this :



Yes, thank You for the comfort Lord, you work in wonderful ways :)

Oh and CONGLE, if you're seeing this (most likely you won't, unless you got stalk me? ^^) HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!! Sorry I meant to write this post before 12am but alas it's 12am so it's 22 June already :/ Haha I'm really glad I met you and I remembered when I was waiting for you to faster come back from the toilet the first day we met. THEN YOU COULDN'T RMB WHERE THE STAFF ENTRANCE WAS LOL. I was thinking, wah this girl so blur sia  Turns out I'm even more blur than you are -.- hahahah. And I went to buy water for you from SASA okay!! Anyways thanks for being my friend and enduring my crap and nonsense ;) M18 already sia!! Haha enjoy your time in camp, don't worry, I'm sure you'll love having your birthday in camp :)


What am I doing still awake at this hour.. I should be doing CSA at least!! Right I'll get started now..

Bye!!

Missing Piece ; Love

These 2 songs have been stuck in my head for quite a while. esp Love :)

If you don't want me in your life, that's alright. All I ever did was bring you misery in the first place. It's better  this way. I don't want to cause any further unhappiness and complications. I'll just slowly move away, I'll let you be happier. I'll make up for the past by not appearing in your life any longer. You deserve so much better. But just remember, I'm still here yeah, if you ever need me.

Oh and Idk if I mentioned this before, but during my Grandma's wake last year, my cousin Faustina mentioned to me that she didn't seem to have much wrinkles compared to last time. Then we go look inside her coffin. And alas, she really didn't seem to have wrinkles :O Before that, in the hopsital, when her coma wasn't so bad, Faustina kept touching her forehead too and mentioned it was really smooth. Then I went to touch and alas, it really was smooth. Lol dk if we noticed it before. But in her last days, her wrinkles seem to have disappeared.. Maybe she wasn't frowning as much as last time?

But I know that this perhaps may be God :) Ever since she accepted Jesus into her life (which was a week before she passed away I THINK? Can't remember sorry :(.. ) she stopped frowning and her wrinkles seemed to be disappearing. Lolol thank God :)

Why I suddenly mention this is that today was Parents' Day is church. Thanks Mummy and Daddy for everything for so many years :) And church showed one vid about the a younger generation guy not understanding why his parents wanna take care of his Grandma since she caused them so much trouble, and why they were sad when her condition in the hospital was critical. He was disrespectful to her at times. Then they showed a flashback. When his Dad was sick with fever, his Grandma ran in the rain to get him to the hospital. She was so concerned for him.
That made me think of my own Grandma. Bringing up my Mum, Aunties and Uncles. There were times I was disrespectful to her, and I regret it but there's nothing I can do. She knows I don't mean it I think. Anyway, she's in a much much much MUCH happier, joyful, blissful and peaceful place now :)

I'll always miss you Ah Ma, but I know I'll be seeing you again someday. And I love you :)

Mid-sem tests starts tmr.. READY SET GO!!! #GodWillGuideUsThroughThisNoFear