giving up beatbox...

i can't believe this.. i'm giving up on beatbox cos of SYF and choir.
I ACTUALLY GAVE UP MY INTEREST COS OF SYF AND CHOIR AND CCA POINTS!
idk what the hell am i doing also.
but choir and syf and cca points concerns my future, it helps to minus the o level points what. so.....
i decided to go for lessons after o level. which are like next year. damn have to wait one whole freaking year just to be able to have my dream fulfilled. $65 for 4 lessons, CHEAP leh! like, wtf?! i can't believe i'm doing this, srsly..
and i'm giving up on beatbox now cos beatbox and choir is CLASH. as in, not the timing or classes that clashes. it's the voice. choir needs my regular voice, but beatbox distorts my voice. so if i take beatbox, SYF = bye bye. and i'm damn sad. sadded alr.

this added to my level of sadness. i'm seeing myself binging (is that how to spell it?) more on foodstuffs and snacks. but today just weigh weight, i'm acceptable weight! ^^ and my height, i grow 2 cm :D

but that's just a small part of my happiness.

the bigger part is the sadness. like, DAMN!

for me, when i'm sad, i become more hungry and i'm beginning to eat more now than i used to. and i'm stuffing myself alot more. why can't i have my bro's genes? eat alot also never grow fat.
and i don't want my stomach to expand again. i hao bu rong yi lost alot of weight from sec 1 until now. god, pls help me.