neorago

now i finally know why the song is called neorago (it's you). by super junior. now i know the meaning behind it. it's cos i gone through the same pain as the song lyrics said.
i've gone through it, and am still going through it.
why
why
why
isit cos god want me to be closer to him, so he put this obstacle in my life so i will go to him? yes i'm closer to god now, but i'm still feeling the pain of missing him... idk why i feel this way. i loved like never before.
this is one giant i have to face. i shall be like david and defeat the "goliath" in my life man!
i have to.
and if the answer is wait, i SHALL wait. but it can't be too long. if it's too long, i may not be able to take the pain. now i know how powerful emotional hurt and pain is. it's much much worse than physical pain and hurt. at least the physical ones can be healed. well, but the emotional ones take time. and it takes way too long.
i will wait.
god, pls don't let it be too long.
i know you know what's best for me.
but i can't help it.
my heart it's yearning.
jesus you are my best friend, you know everything that happens to me, everything i'm going through and have gone through. pls help me.
even though it's only been the 6th day, i feel like it's been 6 months instead.
lord help me, i need you, and i need him as well.

how am i supposed to breathe with no air, that's how i feel whenever you're not there, there's no air, no air.

and i feel really like bella. it's like something punctured through my heart.

but my heart will go on.

i missed the chance on the 21.
but when i have the next chance, i won't let it go. i shall grab it so that i can have you forever.

i will wait ~