Thursday, December 31, 2009

it's new year's eve

so fast, 2009 passed in a blur liao. so far, in 2009, there was only 3.. and the last one is not gonna be forgotten easily. in fact i'm gonna wait until that day comes. today is the 10th day that i've waited. seems so short right? in fact, it seemed to me like a decade. each day passes so slowly.. yet over there each day passes so quick! i wish i can reverse time and go back to the 12 dec again... but yet, i can't. i can only wait for the next chance, and when it comes, i shall grab it with all my might and never let it go.

and yet again, 2009 passed so fast. my sec 2 life is over. argh i don't wanna go sec 3! i'm not prepared yet :( i look at the POA, core hist, physics, chems book all i sian diao alr. ESP CHINESE. HOW AM I GONNA SURVIVE CHINESE AGAIN. DIE LAH :X
hopefully there will be a miracle

my new year's wish is to be drunk, and have a hangover. yesh, you may all think i'm mad or crazy or whatever, but i don't care. i think of liquor as my thing. and my type of drink. i think of liquor as cover of sorrow. it covers up sorrow that people has in them. likewise, same to me. i felt so happy drinking the asahi beer and sake in hokkaido. well, but i WAS truly happy in hokkaido. come back here only, sigh...

well, i'm glad my cousin UNKNOWINGLY ( heh heh ;) ) bought some alcohol chocolates from germany for us :D had a great time eating it man. next time i'm gonna buy sake from sol mart alr. and when i turn 18, i'm gonna down myself with lotsa lotsa beer :D

haha and tuesday went out with SARAH :D went 313 @ somerset. WAH the forever 21 there got 4 storeys! cool :D and the uniqlo there so big! but cannot compare to JAPAN lah, hor? :) bought a 5 dollar shirt from cotton on, quite nice hahaha.

I'M SO NOT PREPARED FOR SEC 3 LIFE. ARGH... my hair is screwed, my bag is screwed (I FREAKING NEED A NEW BAG), and i no like to go back to school to face society and studies once again. i'm afraid i will burst out in tears any moment in school, and it would be like, so embarrassing! i'm afraid i will not be my usual happy-go-lucky self, and i would just sit there and sulk all day long. i'm afraid i will cast a loner image with my sorrow. well, i'll try to be happy! god has given me joy and happinessm i should thank him for it.

well, bye bye 2009, welcome 2010.

Monday, December 28, 2009

the promise :)





i just watched The Promise (向日葵的约定) ytd on channel u. it's a telemovie. wah seh it's damn nice can! and also very touching. it touched my heart and i almost cried :( and yes man, i want it to be a global wide movie, not only in singapore, but the whole world! it's so nice and touching..

well anyways, here is the info i got from channel u about the show :)

info :

Born with mild intellectual disability (MID) , slow in learning and often gullible , 19-year-old Shan Shan is an innocent and friendly girl. Like any teenager, Shan Shan is going through a coming of age, yearning for a special someone.

Tan Mei Juan , Shan's mother, is a single-parent mother who has raised her daughter single handedly. Extremely protective of Shan , Mei Juan devises a “sunflower pact”. If Shan ever falls in love and the boy she loves can fulfill the conditions as laid down in the “sunflower pact”, Mei Juan will give her blessings.

In a chance encounter, Shan falls in love with 19-year-old Wen Yuan who happened to be a slacker in his studies and life. Shan's innocence and attitude to life changed Wen Yuan. However w ill Wen Yuan accept a MID girl as his girlfriend? Is he the one to fulfill the “sunflower's pact”?

cast :

Lee Shan Shan, played by Julie Tan
19-year-old Lee Shan Shan is born with mild intellectual disability with an IQ between 60-75, equivalent to that of a 9-10-year-old . A happy-go-lucky girl she brings smile to the people around her. Although slow in learning, she has a strong sense of determination to achieve her goals.
Shan Shan is naïve in many ways and hence she risked getting cheated by others from time to time. Her mother is her protector in her daily life.
Since young, Shan Shan has been introduced to sunflowers by her mum, and she has grown to love them. Her room, collectibles and tastes revolve around sunflowers.
Her greatest wish is to travel to a big sunflower field with her loved one and admire the flowers.

Tan Wen Yuan, Sam, played by Lawerence Wong
19-year-old Wen Yuan is one with boyish good looks. He comes from a medium income family but turns out to be a slacker in studies and in life.
Easily disinterested in the things he does, Wen Yuan has no concrete idea of what his future holds for him.
His relationship with his Dad is turbulent and his dad hated him for failing his expectations, time and again. Wen Yuan withers his time away in comics and drawing, a talent that he is quietly proud of. He keeps to himself and projects a loner image. The fact is, he craves for someone to share his life and someone to appreciate him, as he is.

Lee Mei Juan, played by Lin Mei Jiao
38 -year-old Mei Juan is a young but strong single parent mother. She raised Shan Shan single handedly.
Mei Juan suffered in love when she was young. At 13-years-old, she fell in love and at a young age of 17-year-old, she gave birth to Shan Shan. Her boyfriend disappeared and left her shortly after that.
Feeling responsible for her daughter, Mei Juan worked doubly hard, feeling all that follows in her life, her daughter's condition and the amount of stress she has to undertake, is a retribution for her wayward behavior when she was young.
Mei Juan wanted a different life for Shan Shan. She created a bright and sunny world for her daughter, hoping to raise her “normal”, find her a normal job and to be independent.
But there is one thing she will not allow her daughter to get into - falling in love.

Paul Ng, played by Zhang Wen Xiang.
48-year-old Paul Ng is a owner of a bakery shop . Effeminate in his behavior , Paul has a positive outlook towards life. Paul is seemingly a very mean boss with high demands, but he is really kind at heart.
Paul is Wen- yuan 's uncle. He is close with Wen- yuan 's mum but at odds with Wen- yuan 's dad.
As his business is going downhill, Paul has to resort to employing Wen Yuan and subsequently Shan Shan at the bakery.
Initially, Paul is very skeptical of Shan Shan's working capabilities and her attitude. But Shan Shan's positive attitude would eventually win him over.



here is the theme song. it's damn nice too. aiya everything about the show's nice! i think it's aimed at those ppl who are prejudiced against those with low IQ. they want those ppl who are prejudiced to know that PPL WITH MID ARE HUMAN BEINGS TOO. they deserve to be respected.

I LOVE THIS SHOW! it really touched my heart. and the story is smth like my case too... so that's why it touched my heart..

-i'm waiting-

Sunday, December 27, 2009

neorago

now i finally know why the song is called neorago (it's you). by super junior. now i know the meaning behind it. it's cos i gone through the same pain as the song lyrics said.
i've gone through it, and am still going through it.
why
why
why
isit cos god want me to be closer to him, so he put this obstacle in my life so i will go to him? yes i'm closer to god now, but i'm still feeling the pain of missing him... idk why i feel this way. i loved like never before.
this is one giant i have to face. i shall be like david and defeat the "goliath" in my life man!
i have to.
and if the answer is wait, i SHALL wait. but it can't be too long. if it's too long, i may not be able to take the pain. now i know how powerful emotional hurt and pain is. it's much much worse than physical pain and hurt. at least the physical ones can be healed. well, but the emotional ones take time. and it takes way too long.
i will wait.
god, pls don't let it be too long.
i know you know what's best for me.
but i can't help it.
my heart it's yearning.
jesus you are my best friend, you know everything that happens to me, everything i'm going through and have gone through. pls help me.
even though it's only been the 6th day, i feel like it's been 6 months instead.
lord help me, i need you, and i need him as well.

how am i supposed to breathe with no air, that's how i feel whenever you're not there, there's no air, no air.

and i feel really like bella. it's like something punctured through my heart.

but my heart will go on.

i missed the chance on the 21.
but when i have the next chance, i won't let it go. i shall grab it so that i can have you forever.

i will wait ~

Thursday, December 24, 2009

crap i'm forgetting things..

crap i'm srsly forgetting alot of stuffs T_T

i forgot to write about the time we experienced the 41 degrees thingy in hokkaido. it's called the ice pavilion. extremely cold sia! LOL. but then after come out it's okay liao.

i also forgot to write that i fed swans and ducks! in hokkaido. oh wait, did i alr blog about it? aiyooo... aiya don't care lah i just gonna blog about the experience here :) haha the swans so cute! the duckys also :D

and i also forget to say about the ramen village. they said it was a ramen making factory, but we only went to the ramen village to eat dinner! -.- i think cos it was snowing uber heavily that time. rly like blizzard sia haha. but the ramen is still nice :D JAPANESE FOOD, FTW!

i miss hokkaido. i miss everything in hokkaido, the soft ice cream, the food, the snow, the cold, everything! i miss the 100 yen shop in sapporo, i miss the sapporo tower, i miss the otaru canal, i miss the looks of otaru (otaru looks like a very nice and historical place! their design damn good. smth like london), i miss the music box museum, i miss the japanese service, the extremely good and polite service. i miss their toiliet! I MISS HOKKAIDO'S EVERYTHING!

i will wait...

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

happiness god placed in me :)

forgot to say about the white chocolate factory ytd. WAH IT WAS DAMN NICE! it was like disney concept, the whole building. damn nice :) the place very class :D

i'm still waiting for god's answer. yes, wait, or no?
if it's yes, i'm sure i'll see him again very soon.
if it's wait, i shall wait no matter how long it is.
if it's no, i will get over it.
most likely it's wait. i just have this feeling, but i wanna confirm it. so i'm waiting for god's answer.
if we are fated to be, i'll definitely see him again.

haha and god gave me a sudden surge of happiness ytd and i became my normal self again :) then went out with dayna and told her about the whole thing. the happiness thingy, she said, it's definitely from god (and i know it myself too). but then there are maybe 2 reasons for the happiness.
1) is that happiness for me to get over it.
2) is that happiness for me that i will get to see him again.

i loved like never before.....

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

BACK FROM HOKKAIDO AND SHANGHAI!

hihi. i'm back from hokkaido and shanghai :D

it was from 12 dec to 21 dec :)

anyways, here is the itinery that my uncle emailed us. the itinery is not so accurate cos sometimes it reshuffled due to weather conditions in hokkaido. i will be adding some of my feelings and comments on the trip in the itinery haha.
bai si lian ren rocks! haha it's hokkaido's most famous product, which is white chocolate biscuit. the first time i tried the sample, i fell in love with it :) ALMOST EVERY SHOP got sell bai si lian ren :D

12 Dec 09 2215hrs - Assemble at Changi Airport Terminal 3 Row 5 for Check-in.
my god they took soooo freaking long just to check in the luggages. idk how the tour guide do the admin stuffs one.

DAY TWO - Shanghai to Chitose to Lake Toya *(breakfast on-board/lunch/dinner)
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13 Dec 09 0055hrs - Depart SG for Shanghai via MU544 (China Eastern Airline)
i hate china airlines.

13 Dec 09 0610hrs - Reach Shanghai for short rest and prepare for transfer flight

13 Dec 09 0815hrs - Depart Shanghai via MU279 to Hokkaido
finally, coming hokkaido le.

13 Dec 09 1215hrs (Japanese time, +1hr) - Reach Hokkaido for commencement of tour
YAY.

13 Dec 09 After 1230hrs - Proceed for lunch. Then to visit Jigokudani or "Hell Valley" for stroll in volcanic areas to see boiling ponds and steaming streams. Next to Mount Shauwu to see volcanic mountains from a distance. Then to Lake Toya area for dinner & accomodation arranged at Toyako Gyoen Honkan (0142-75-2445). Hot spring baths (complimentary) recommended at own leisure within the hotel premise.
i didn't go hot spring T_T cos my mum didn't go so i didn't too. only my dad, bro and uncle went. they said it was shiok. haha and had to sleep on tatami that day. the pillow like got beads inside. reminded me of the medicated pillows in korea.

DAY THREE - Lake Toya to Sapporo *(breakfast/lunch) dinner at own expense
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14 Dec 09 - After breakfast, Cruise in elegant Lake Toya to view seagulls, swans or possibly, deers! Snow activities available at ski resort but snow equipments are only available upon rental. Cost of snow mobile is 18000Y for twin-sharing, equivalent to SG$290. Thereafter, proceed to Ainu Village to witness lifestyles of Ainu via displays of their heirlooms. Next is the Bear Ranch, to see hundreds of little bears. Lunch provided for. Then to Sapporo TV Tower & Tanukikojo Shopping Arcade, for shopping spree. Evening to Seafood Market for self-arranged dinner and shops selling Hokkaido delicacies. Optional crab buffet with free flow of sake/drinks priced 8600Y pp, equivalent to SG$138. Accomodate at Sapporo APA Resort (0115-71-3111).
okay, i didn't go the snow mobile thingy, but built a small snowman and pulled each other o9n a sleigh. lol me, bro and cousin did these things. the stuff that involved the whole family was snowball fight. lol that was uber fun :) that place have alot of snow, and it's very memorable :D
the bear place so cute! got ducks there also rofl.
okay, Sapporo is COOL! haha we didn't go the crab buffet, so we ate dinner ourselves :) sapporo is damn cool, then we also went to the 199 yen shop and bought lotsa stuffs. then it was also snowing quite heavily in sapporo.

DAY FOUR - Sapporo to Asahikawa *(breakfast/lunch) dinner at own expense
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15 Dec 09 - After breakfast, advance to Otaru Music Box Museum, to view crafting of music boxes. Then to Kitachi Glass Shop, for its unique lamps and hand-blown glassware. Alongside, to enjoy sightseeing many shops lining Otaru Canal. After lunch, proceed to Ishiya White Chocolate Factory. Night accomodation arranged at Asahikawa Crescent Hotel (0166-27-1111). Dinner at own leisure.
haha after we went otaru canal, we went to the music box museum. all the music boxes damn cute cans! :D but didn't buy for fear of breaking it. then after that we roam outside the streets and bought soft ice cream. haha then from then on everyday we ate the soft ice cream. it was damn nice :)

DAY FIVE - Asahikawa to Sounkyo *(breakfast/lunch/dinner)
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16 Dec 09 - After breakfast, proceed to Otokoyama Sake Brewery Museum, experienced in sake brewing for 330yrs. Sake tasting sessions available at no costs. Then to Ramen Village to sample different varieties of ramen. After lunch, proceed to Asahikawa shopping streets for some great bargains. Dinner and accomodation provided for at Sounkyo Grand Hotel (0165-85-3111).
OMG the sake was GOOD!
then ramen village, also GOOD.
okay the dinner was buffet and got HOKKAIDO CRAB! lucky we never go the crab buffet that need to pay de :P hahaha, so our wishes got answered and we got to try the crab without paying for it :D rofl

DAY SIX - Sounkyo to Sapporo *(breakfast/lunch/dinner)
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17 Dec 09 - After breakfast, proceed to Sounkyo Gorge and take cable car (subject to weather conditions) to witness the beautiful Mount Daisetsu-zan, created by columnar cliffs, lined with worth-seeing shootiing star and silver river waterfalls. After lunch, transit to Sapporo for free and easy activities. Snow activities can also be opted on personal accounts. Dinner and accomodation arranged at the Tower Hotel (0167-57-2030).
wah the mount daisetsuzu damn nice. got extremely nice and scenic views :)
lol then the waterfall there so funny. it was frozen and got snow on top of it. i was like : this is a waterfall? LOL.
then me, bro and dad tried skiing. the skiing boots so hard to walk! and when i attached those long "legs" on my boots i cannot even walk liao. when skiing down, i lost balance and fell flat on my face. everyone laughing at me -.- my uncle took a vid of it. lol.

DAY SEVEN - Sapporo to Chitose *(breakfast/lunch/dinner)
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18 Dec 09 - After breakfast, advance to Asaki Beer Factory, one of famous beer brands in Japan. Then to another Lake for swan and scenic views. After lunch, embark on a 3hr journey back to Chitose for dinner. Accomodation arranged at Coms Shin-Chitose near the airport.
the beer factory was good too. hehe i also tasted the beer :)

DAY EIGHT - Chitose to Shanghai *(breakfast/lunch on-board) dinner priced 35RMB
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19 Dec 09 - After breakfast, transfer to airport for transfer to Shanghai.
19 Dec 09 1320hrs - Depart Hokkaido for Shanghai via MU280
19 Dec 09 1600hrs (Shanghai's time, same as SG) - Reach Shanghai
19 Dec 09 After 1600hrs - Transfer to Nanjing Shopping streets. Then to Fengshui Museum and dinner thereafter. Dinner at own expenses, priced at 35RMB pp. Accomodation arranged for Rayfront Xu Hui Hotel (86-0514-82987018). Optional night tours available at SG$50 - $70. We WONT be joining these tours.

DAY NINE - Shanghai *(breakfast)
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20 Dec 09 - FREE AND EASY. Not joining group tours

DAY TEN - Shanghai to Singapore *(breakfast/lunch on-board)
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21 Dec 09 - After breakfast, transfer to airport for return to SG.
21 Dec 09 1020hrs - Return to SG via MU567
21 Dec 09 1545hrs - HOME SWEET HOME

haha basically i loved hokkaido, but NOT shanghai. then hokkaido was also the first place i tried my very first beer and wine (sake) :D
haha i also tried abalone. they literally cook it in front of you. haha we have the vid of it.
there was also family love and warmth throughout the trip :)
haha my tour guide (the one bringing us to from sg to hokkaido, from hokkaido to shanghai and from shanghai back to sg) was cute! haha then got another tour guide in hokkaido. that one is dua tao. then shanghai also got another dua tao. basically the cute one is a small fry.
hokkaido is also a place for me where love formed. i regretted not having any action or responding. but i have to get over it no matter what. maybe, if there is fate, we will meet each other again. hopefully. if i meet you again, my heart maybe would not be as pain as it is now. pls god, help me through this.

hokkaido, FTW!
*AHGUMON, CHIONG! (lol this is inside stuff)

Saturday, December 12, 2009

HOKKAIDO HERE I COME!

HOKKAIDO HERE I COME!

haha taking midnight flight today.

pls don't msg or call me while i'm away ty :)

i'll be coming back on 21/22 :D

YAY FOR HOKKAIDO!

Friday, December 11, 2009

1 more day

1 more day!

oh yah pls don't msg or call me from tmr to 21/22. tyty :)

Thursday, December 10, 2009

never in my life had i felt so satisfied before.. :D

NEVER IN MY LIFE HAD I FELT SO SATISFIED BEFORE :D
bought 17 (actually it's 18 cos got 2 stuck tgt then even i didn't know until i got home) SUPER JUNIOR CALENDARS and 1 sheet of suju M stickers. i didn't even know why i bought suju M one. cos apparently i don't give a shit about super junior M. lol. then the calendars are those small small card size like ones. it's for 2010 :) haha next year can use :D
bought those from simei eastpoint.

YAY 2 MORE DAYS TO HOKKAIDO AND SHANGHAI!! WOOHOO!! :D

die lah :X i still have cough. hope it will get better. it will, cos i've prayed :D

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

TABBY IS OUT :(

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. TABITHA IS OUT!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
now i'm siding with sylvia. i don't want sezairi to win :@

Friday, December 4, 2009

out with dayna at marina!

HEHEHE YTD I CUT MY NAILS, ONLY LEFT MY MIDDLE FINGER LONG ^^

haha today went out to marina with dayna :)
omg the rain was freaking heavy -.- then wait till the rain not so bad then go out haha. bought tickets for new moon (yes, i'm watching it again :D). we got the 2 seater one! YAY. haha ate lunch at yoshinoya. OMG THEN DAYNA SAW TABITHA WALKING PAST with some other a man and a lady. then i was quite sure that the lady is sylvia. haha i think it's her bah :D i'm pretty sure it is.
then walk walk around, play those arcade machine, those slot $1 inside one, then have a chance to win smth. dayna got a big bird! and i got a STITCH :D plus a minnie which dropped out cos the thingy too full lol LOL. YAY I LOVE THE NEW STITCH <3 then after watching new moon, go dinner :D lol at swensens. then went back :)

Thursday, December 3, 2009

charles is out :'( :(((((

okayy, so a few moments ago was the results show on SI. damn sadd cans! charles is out :(((((( i damn sad can! well, but that's not the last we all will see of him ;) who knows, later he become my beatbox teacher ^^ hehehehehehehe. lol. i anyhow say one :X hmm but i'm srsly considering to learn beatbox. my mum also approved of it liao, so WHY NOT? hahah
and now that charles is out (cries), then i'll wanting tabitha to become the next singapore idol :)

and what i wanna say of charles is that :
1. he has a very soulful and nice voice in which i LIKE alot alot.
2. he's a darn good and awesome beatboxer!
3. he's really talented :)
4. he plays the guitar well! hahah

CHARLES, YOU'LL ALWAYS BE THE WINNER (other than tabitha) TO ME :D



and like, this guy is really good at beatboxing! i like how he does hum and beat :)
PS : crab stratch is cool! and charles beatboxing is damn good can! hahah (duh, he's a beatboxer).