What's wrong with me?

To think someone asked me if I had depression before :/

Oh goodness what’s wrong with me?

How can I be like this?

I think I’ll just disappear from ppl’s lives, so their lives will be better. Somehow I just feel I’m making it worse just by being there.

I know that I’m here to impact people, but if I’m gonna impact ppl negatively, then I’d rather not.

What's wrong with me? I've not been very me lately. I've come to the point where I can just sit and stone and just rethink everything and relive the past year in my head, and where if anyone asks me if I'm alright I will just start tearing. I think the past has gotten to me too much, and Idk what to feel nowadays.

Maybe I'm too tired and worn out from this holidays (ironic right Idk why almost everyday I feel tired).

I've came to the point where I'm not caring, not bothering about anything and everything under the sun.

What's wrong with me?

Reveal to me, Lord, and make me a better person. To not always be such a failure etc etc.. Reveal to me what needs to be fixed and mould me to be a greater person, living for You. Help me to get out of all these feelings so I don't hurt others around me.

This is our God

There's just so much on my mind now.. So many things I'm worried about that I feel like I can break down any moment. It's this unsettled thing and feeling in my heart, where I can't help but get so worried. 

But I know our God is so much greater than all the problems, so I'm telling those problems that our God is greater and so much bigger than them!

Also, Matthew 6:34 says "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."

I won't worry about tomorrow, I'm trusting in what You say! :)

God knows our situations, God also knows the solutions to them.

Lord, I'm really worried. But I know that You are in control of everything, and that I won't have to worry about tomorrow. Everything's gonna be alright cos You're holding the whole world in Your hands. Help us through everything Lord, and make it okay. I really thank You so much cos even as I declared (or rather, typed) this, I already feel that familiar feeling of a burden being taken from my heart, and I'm still feeling this. Thank You so much Lord. I know that whenever I see only a pair of footprints in the sand, I'll know that's when You are carrying me, wrapping a blanket around me, comforting me and telling me that everything's gonna be alright. Thank You so much :)

I'm really trusting in what You say. Trusting, having faith, loving, going out all the way to declare that I am free and there's a Saviour who loves the world so much. Yes, He loves you and I, and everyone else around. No matter what you've done in your life, He loves you just for who you are, and that's really the most amazing thing ever. No words can describe this feeling that He gives. It's having His protection, security, safety, peace, love, kindness, gentleness, patience, wisdom, strength, courage, and just having Him. You can run to Him anytime, cos He always has open arms for you to run into. He'll make you feel so much better than a cup of hot chocolate can.

This is our God.

Awesome, amazing, faithful, loving, strong, healer, giver, comforting, almighty, alpha and omega, redeemer.

This really is our God.

Our God is Greater

Let go and let God.

The seed I received I will sow.

No weapon formed against me shall remain.

I'm telling and declaring right now, that my God is so much greater and bigger than all my problems. My God is so much more awesomer than the stupid problems and irritating problems. My God is the one true God, who will lift me up upon His shoulders, love me for who I am, and carry me through life. This is our God that I love, that I worship. This is my God, who has such great love that He sent His one and only son to die on the cross for the whole world. Because of Jesus, we are free, no longer bound to sin.

So I declare, for the rest of my life, forevermore, for eternity, that my problems CANNOT and NEVER WILL triumph over me for my GOD is GREATER, STRONGER and HIGHER than any other.

HE was, and is, and is to come. HE is, our SAVIOUR.

The one that got away

What if the one that got away came back?