wedding dress, my heaven

both wedding dress and my heaven appeals to me. but my heaven appeals more

hate this.

i hate it. i hate this. it's already bad enough that bad stuff keep happening. why?! i already feel so miserable, pathetic, everything. why does everything have to turn out badly. wth did i do?

i long for you. yet i don't see you. i want to rewind time.. back to the 12th..

my grades are dropping. and i can't seem to be able to study. lord save me!
i don't seem to be able to understand chinese anymore. HELP ME LORD!

then councillor thingy. hmm i don't mind being CCA leader but then plus this councillor thingy i have more stress added to me.

and don't blame me for not going to church. i don't have a choice. though i will start going again ^^

LORD PLS HELP ME THRU THIS TIME!

cny :)

TUAN YUAN FAN ON SATURDAY WAS UBER FUN AND GOOD!!!
had lotsa food :)
and played mahjong afterwards! i won 3 times :DD the last time i won is self-win (zi mo) de hehe.
but the mahjong tiles scratched my nail polish! :X
i painted (with the help of my aunty haha) my nails orange, yellow, blue and green :)
thumb - orange
index finger - blue
middle finger - orange
ring finger - yellow
pinky - green

yeah and anyways, ytd was CNY DAY 1! :DD haha went church for service, then grandpa's place, then somemore relatives places, then cousin josephine's place (for ah gong), then cousin faustina's place (for the granny :D), then went home, and went family friend's place.
at cousin faustina's place i tried my G-Dragon makeup. but quite light sia D: but i still quite happy with it hahaha :D
then after that went home and touch-up.then go family friends place everyone all ask me what happen to my eye, even the baby! :( lol my dad joked that i tio punch by someone -.- i'm gonna try either yellow or pink today :)
oh yah today's cny day 2.

SIAN LAH GO BACK SCHOOL ON WEDNESDAY

beatbox by my Gdragon :)

WATCHED AVATAR YTD. SO FRIGGIN COOL :DDDDDDDD

and later got tuan yuan fan!! woots! ~
but tmr's the real deal :) cos it's when we get those cute lil' red packets :DDDDDDDD but the bloody big blister on my foot hasn't gone away yet.. argh..

and oh, just in case you guys have been thinking i'm over beatbox already, WELL, I HAVEN'T! i'm still quite bent on learning it :)

oh and here's a vid of MY (saw that?! MINE!) G-Dragon BEATBOXING! so cool right :DD hahaha OH MY KWON JI YONG! SARANGHAE! G-DRAGON SARANGHAE! KWON JI YONG SARANGHAE! JI YONG OPPA, SARANGHAE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3 :D (okay i'm crazy)


and this is haru haru by big bang. i've been listening to this non-stop as it really appeals to me. i've also been listening to sign by brown eyed girls non-stop. each and every word in the lyrics of both haru haru and brown eyed girls are appealing to me.

oh yeah and if you're wondering what the mv is about, it's about the girl leaving G-Dragon for TOP. then G-Dragon was very sad and all lah. then actually is the girl has cancer and she gonna die soon liao. so she just played along with TOP so as not to hurt G-Dragon when she dies. then G-Dragon only found out about it when she going to die liao. so sacrificial and sad right. my poor G-Dragon cry like siao in the mv :(

this is the english translation : (GD = G-Dragon, TOP = TOP, DS = Daesung, SR = Seungri, TY = Taeyang)

Leave
Yeah, Finally I realize that I am nothing without you
I was so wrong, forgive me
Ah ah ah ah~
[Verse 1; GD + TOP]
My broken heart like a wave
My shaken heart like a wind
My heart vanished like smoke
It can’t be removed like a tattoo
I sigh deeply as if a ground is going to cave in
Only dusts are piled up in my mind
(say goodbye)
[GD Rap]
Yeah, I thought I wouldn’t be able to live even one day without you
But somehow I managed to live on (longer) than I thought
You don’t answer anything as I cry out “I miss you”
I hope for a vain expectation but now it’s useless
[TOP Rap]
What is it about that person next to you, did he make you cry?
Dear can you even see me, did you forget completely?
I am worried, I feel anxiety because I can’t get close nor try to talk to you
I spend long nights by myself, erasing my thoughts a thousand times
[Chorus]
Don’t look back and leave
Don’t find me again and live (on)
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)
Oh girl I cry, cry
You’re my all, say goodbye…
[Verse 2; SR + DS]
If we pass by each other on the street
Act like you didn’t see me and go the way you were walking to
If you keep thinking about our past memories
I might go look for you secretly
[GD] Always be happy with him, (so) I won’t ever get a different mind
Even smallest regret won’t be left out ever
Please live well as if I should feel jealous
[TOP] You should always be like that bright sky, like that white cloud
Yes, you should always smile like that as if nothing happened
[Repeat Chorus]
[Bridge; DS + SR]
I hope your heart feels relieved
Please forget about me and live (on)
Those tears will dry completely
As time passes by
[YB] It would’ve hurt less if we didn’t meet at all (mm)
Hope you will bury our promise of being together forever baby
I pray for you
[Repeat Chorus]
Oh girl I cry, cry
You’re my all, say goodbye, bye
Oh my love don’t lie, lie
You’re my heart, say goodbye
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and this is noona you're so pretty by MY OH-SO-CUTE SHINEE! <3 the dance version. the song was so long ago! makes me think how young they were when they debuted. it's rly cool and i think it's even cooler than ring ding dong :) but ring ding dong is still darn cool too :DD

sign - brown eyed girls

this is sign by brown eyed girls :D it really appeals to me. every word in its lyrics are how i feel... appealing (:



Can't breath, it's a Mayday, dot dot dot dot, Heart hurts, it's a Mayday, dot dot dot dot dot
Time goes Tic toc and flies by Tic Toc. Can you hear my Sign, Sign, dot dot dot dot dot

dot dot dot dot dot, Please just dot dot dot dot dot look at me for one last time
I once shined but now I am different. And I couldn't say anything dot dot dot dot dot

It's me- the one who's crying like a fool
I'm in the dark room all day and all night and it's not alright
Why can't you understand my heart
My heart tightens as time passes

My Eyes squeezing tears out
I am scared that this is the end, so please save me.

Can't breath, it's a Mayday dot dot dot dot, Heart hurts, it's a Mayday dot dot dot dot dot
Time goes Tic toc and it flies by Tic Toc. Can you hear my Sign, Sign, dot dot dot dot dot

dot dot dot dot dot I have a lot to say dot dot dot dot dot so please listen
And don't pretend you don't know about the day I've lost everything dot dot dot dot dot

Do you know how I feel and I've confessed countless times
And the love sign I gave you. Did you get my sign? sign?
I need you to get back up. Without you I have worry syndrome.
Don't neglect me, I want you by my side, side

Shivering lips and my heart which won't last much
And I'm too scared that it might stop, so please save me.

Can't breath, it's a Mayday, dot dot dot dot, Heart hurts, it's a Mayday, dot dot dot dot dot
Time goes Tic toc and it flies by Tic Toc. Can you hear my Sign, Sign, dot dot dot dot dot

Your memories within me and I hold my breath and endure it.
Please, you know I will crumble without you

Can't breath it's a Mayday, dot dot dot dot, Heart hurts it's a Mayday, dot dot dot dot dot
Time goes Tic toc and it flies by Tic Toc. Can you hear my Sign, Sign, dot dot dot dot dot (Please)

Can't breath it's a Mayday, dot dot dot dot, Heart hurts it's a Mayday, dot dot dot dot dot
Time goes Tic toc and it flies by Tic Toc. Can you hear my Sign, Sign, dot dot dot dot dot

숨이 가파 Mayday, dot dot dot dot dot
맘이 아파 Mayday, dot dot dot dot dot
시간은 또 Tic Toc 흘러만 가 Tic Toc
들리니 내 Sign, Sign, dot dot dot dot dot

dot dot dot dot dot 마지못해서라도
dot dot dot dot dot 나를 한 번 봐 봐
환했던 나를 봐 이렇게 나 변해가
아무 말 못하고 dot dot dot dot dot

It`s me- 바보같이 눈물만 펑펑펑 흘리는 나야
난 all day and all night
어두운 방안에 있기만 해 not all right
아무리 말해도 내맘을 왜 몰라
일분 일초의 순간 순간이 나의 가슴을 조여와

스르륵 감기는 나의 두 눈이
주르륵 흘리는 나의 눈물이이대로
끝이란게 두려워 난 모든게
이런 날 구해줘 제발

숨이 가파 Mayday, dot dot dot dot dot
맘이 아파 Mayday, dot dot dot dot dot
시간은 또 Tic Toc 흘러만 가 Tic Toc
들리니 내 Sign, Sign, dot dot dot dot dot

dot dot dot dot dot 못한 말은 많은데
dot dot dot dot dot 제발 들어 봐 봐
이렇게 나를 봐 모르는 척 하지마
모든걸 잃은 날 dot dot dot dot dot

그대 이제는 아나요 내 맘
수천번 고백했네 난너를 향한 사랑의 싸인
Did you get my sign? sign?
니가 있어야 일어 일어 나 나
니가 없어 시름시름 앓아외면하지 마요 날
want you by my side, side

파르르 떨리는 나의 입술이
하루를 버티지 못할 심장이
이대로 멈추는게 두려워 나 모든게
이런 날 구해줘 제발

숨이 가파 Mayday, dot dot dot dot dot
맘이 아파 Mayday, dot dot dot dot dot
시간은 또 Tic Toc 흘러만 가 Tic Toc
들리니 내 Sign, Sign, dot dot dot dot dot

내안에 니가 또 차오른다
숨을 꼭 참고 널 참아본다
널 보내면 무너질 날 알잖아 제발

숨이 가파 Mayday, dot dot dot dot dot
맘이 아파 Mayday, dot dot dot dot dot
시간은 또 Tic Toc 흘러만 가 Tic Toc
들리니 내 Sign, Sign, dot dot dot dot dot (제발)

숨이 가파 Mayday, dot dot dot dot dot
맘이 아파 Mayday, dot dot dot dot dot
시간은 또 Tic Toc 흘러만 가 Tic Toc
들리니 내 Sign, Sign, dot dot dot dot dot

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bought new year clothes today! YAY

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hokkaido fair again last sunday on 7feb! decided to go again cos it was last day. bought lotsa stuffs there.

AND THERE WAS THIS QUIZ IN WHICH IF YOU GET ALL CORRECT, YOU GET BAI SI LIAN REN!!! :DDD BUT I GOT 2 WRONG :( SADD LAH! THEY DON'T EXPORT OUT TO OTHER COUNTRIES DE LEH. DAMN IT! :((( my heart was totally shattered into pieces :(

anw, i wanna do this for CNY. decided to do it on day 2 cos rather inappropriate.


darn cool! :DD

GDRAGON YOU ROCK! I LOVE YOU! MY KWON JIYONG/GDRAGON!! <33333333 :DDDDDD


lol okay i'm in love with gdragon as well as his dog, gaho. BOTH OF THEM ARE SO FREAKING CUTEEEEE :DDD

AND I CAN'T STOP WATCHING KEY DANCE TO GIRL GROUP SONGS! HE KNOWS EVERY DANCE GIRL GROUPS HAVE! AND HE CAN TOTALLY OWN THEM LAH! :DDD MY KEY, YOU'RE SO ADORABLE! <3



lol i find abracadabra the best one (partly cos i don't like snsd :P)
LOL OH KEY, GDRAGON I LOVE YOU OPPAS!! :DD <3 <3 <3

sometimes i could not even rmb how you look like...

sometimes... i can't even remember how you look like... but if in real life i do see you, i'll be EXTREMELY SURE it's you.