just came back from hokkaido fair! like, OMG all the stuff i love are there! except bai si lian ren :( sadd lah haha. AND I BOUGHT 4 CANS OF BEER!!! :DDDDD 1 is sapporo classic, another is sapporo black label beer, and then followed by some other brand beer (from hokkaido too) and our most LOVED and FAVOURITE ASAHI BEER!!!! :DDDDD heh i'm gonna drink 1 can tonight ^^
BAI SI LIAN REN I MISS YOU! :(
should i give up? it's too pain and god's telling me to let go of it but my heart just doesn't allow it :( every moment, i miss u more and more. someone commented on iris OST on youtube : I never knew how painful "love" is before. I loved u too much, thats why i left u, darling~ Yet my heart is stopped at the moment. Even though im loving u now and dying to see u again, Why arent u coming back to me? I luv u, darling . Could u come back to me? coz i m dying to be with u. My heart had worn down til i couldnt feel anymore pain
i can't agree more, srsly :( i'm sucha dumbass for not grabbing that opportunity that time :(
snowflakes, aren't they just wonderful stuff? they are actually rain in the form of snow. and they feel much lighter than rain. i still remember the times we played with snow, and snow falling on my face. i reached out my tongue to let the snow fall on my tongue as i wanted to taste it. snow is the most awesome thing GOD has ever created :)
EACH SNOWFLAKE IS UNIQUE AND SPECIAL ON IT'S OWN. each snowflake has a different design. once the snowflake has melted, the design is lost FOREVER. ytd newspaper had an article on snowflakes. and they showed the snowflake which has been kept for quite a long while. they had to zoom in to see the design of the snowflake, and it's marvellous. just simply fantastic (fantastic, fantastic, fantastic, fantastic, elastic, elastic, elastic, elastic! RING DING DONG ring ding dong ring dingyy ding ding ring ding ding ding ;D )
god spoke to me about snowflakes after seeing that article. he told me that all of us are like snowflakes. we may all look the same on the outside, but different on the inside. like i said, snowflakes are all different and they are unique and special on it's own inside. so, we are all like snowflakes, special in god's eyes. to the world, we all look the same (exterior) but in god's eyes, we are unique (interior).
and, ever wondered how to keep a snowflake design for decades? searched and google and here's how they do it : Here's how to save a snow flake, with super glue - " Ever wanted to catch a snowflake and keep it forever? You can. This is a photograph of a snowflake that fell in January 1979, but it isn't a 27-year-old photo. It is a recent shot of a snowflake that's been sitting in chemist Tryggvi Emilsson's desk for 27 years, locked in a drop of that miracle of modern chemistry we call superglue. "
lol right? didn't even think of it. next time if have the chance to go winter country again i'll try ^^ if i had knew this earlier, i would've tried it in hokkaido! so much snow falling! :D I LOVE SNOW SNOW SNOW AND WINTER! :D decided to call my future child (if have one) dong tian :) for chinese name haha.
anyways, went to find some snowflake design pics. enjoy!
okay, this last one here is the one mentioned in the superglue thingy when i searched on google :)
about snowflakes : Snowflakes are conglomerations of frozen ice crystals which fall through the Earth's atmosphere. They begin as snow crystals which develop when microscopic supercooled cloud droplets freeze. Snowflakes come in a variety of sizes and shapes. Complex shapes emerge as the flake moves through differing temperature and humidity regimes. Individual snowflakes are nearly unique in structure. Types which fall in the form of a ball due to melting and refreezing, rather than a flake, are known as graupel, with ice pellets and snow grains as examples of graupel. It is next to impossible that two snowflakes are exactly alike due to the roughly 1018 water molecules which make up a snowflake,[14] which grow at different rates and in different patterns depending on the changing temperature and humidity within the atmosphere that the snowflake falls through on its way to the ground united. The snowflake is often a traditional seasonal image/motif used around the Christmas period, especially in Europe, representing the traditional White Christmas. Snowflakes are also often used as symbols representing winter or cold conditions. For example, tires which enhance traction during harsh winter driving conditions are labelled with a snowflake on the mountain symbol.[18] A snowflake was the symbol of the 2002 Winter Olympic Games in Salt Lake City, Utah.[19]
a month has passed.. i shall give everything to god. let him handle it. i shall let fate decide for itself. i so badly want to see you again. my heart is aching and is pain right now..
this song explains my feelings exactly. vanilla twilight rocks! i'm too emo now to use any emoticons... I JUST WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN. IF THAT WISH IS GRANTED, EVERYTHING ELSE WILL BE SETTLED.
i can't believe this.. i'm giving up on beatbox cos of SYF and choir. I ACTUALLY GAVE UP MY INTEREST COS OF SYF AND CHOIR AND CCA POINTS! idk what the hell am i doing also. but choir and syf and cca points concerns my future, it helps to minus the o level points what. so..... i decided to go for lessons after o level. which are like next year. damn have to wait one whole freaking year just to be able to have my dream fulfilled. $65 for 4 lessons, CHEAP leh! like, wtf?! i can't believe i'm doing this, srsly.. and i'm giving up on beatbox now cos beatbox and choir is CLASH. as in, not the timing or classes that clashes. it's the voice. choir needs my regular voice, but beatbox distorts my voice. so if i take beatbox, SYF = bye bye. and i'm damn sad. sadded alr.
this added to my level of sadness. i'm seeing myself binging (is that how to spell it?) more on foodstuffs and snacks. but today just weigh weight, i'm acceptable weight! ^^ and my height, i grow 2 cm :D
but that's just a small part of my happiness.
the bigger part is the sadness. like, DAMN!
for me, when i'm sad, i become more hungry and i'm beginning to eat more now than i used to. and i'm stuffing myself alot more. why can't i have my bro's genes? eat alot also never grow fat. and i don't want my stomach to expand again. i hao bu rong yi lost alot of weight from sec 1 until now. god, pls help me.
HEY I'M BACK FROM SEC 3 CAMP! the toiliet there so dirty! want shit also cannot. finally i come back and everything all clear liao. woots! and shower time very rush lol. i'm suffering from extreme tiredness. and it's quite fun lah. didn't go kayaking due to my abrasion. went rock climbing, but i climb halfway 3 metres then cannot find any rock to put my foot on liao T_T so i went down. then went abseiling and flying fox. and also jumper. quite fun lah haha just that personal hygiene..... -.- AND I FELL IN LOVE WITH AIRPLANES :D
I MISS HOKKAIDO! :( and my bro haven't uploaded the hokkaido photos into fb! cannot tahan anymore, i upload some here first. i hope he faster uploads it onto fb otherwise i will do it liao :P
how long do i have to wait?? i feel so depressed and sad alr. it's gonna be a month soon. it's alr half a month, but time passes so slow. over at hokkaido when i'm enjoying myself and feeling very blessed, time passes so fast. when i'm sad now, time passes so slow. i know that love's not time's fool, but i just can't stand it anymore. it's morphing me, killing me. lord pls help me, i wanna see U again. i feel so... no words can ever describe. singapore is so small. let us meet again lord. i can never stop hoping that i will see him again. let me recognise him when we meet again. do you know that airplanes remind me of you? do you know that i am willing to wait for you? do you know that you touched my heart so deeply that i can't seem to forget you? the time you used yourself as a pillar for me when skiing, that was when i was uber touched. but i regretted not reciprocating your love. and now i'm suffering. let me just see you again soon. time passes so slow nowadays. it's rly heartbreaking and my heart is yearning for only you. if i could just talk to you or see you again, i would be so happy. it's like having no air. that's how i feel. my heart aches, and i'm hyperventilating. if i could just see you..
this song totally describes my feelings, it makes me wanna cry too. it's the theme song for my sassy girl (nice movie btw). called i believe.
Translation: I believe (Singer: Shin Seung Hoon)
I believe… When you are not with me there are no stars in the sky. I believe… The way back to you will feel a little far. I’ll carry all those memories deep inside me. I’ll feel pain, it’ll make tears fall. When I won’t cry you will leave me With no change and no tears. Someday again the tears will come around You know it I’ll believe that you are waiting. I do it for you. I believe… It’ll hurt me to see, you can’t cry. I believe… My tears will fall, you should turn back to me again. Again I’ll glimpse you come into my sight And it’ll make my tears fall. When I won’t cry you will leave me With no change and no tears. Someday again the tears will come around You know it I’ll believe that you are waiting. I do it for you. Before I knew you, the world was dazzling. From that sky I got left with tears. I will care for that person. You are the only reason… To me the wait gives me enough happiness. Love is the only reason… As days pass by, If you forget the way, I’ll be waiting I do it for you. I do it for you. ----------------------
this song also describes my feelings. it's the movie white chicks (darn funny movie :D) theme song, a thousand miles by vanessa carlton.
Making my way downtown Walking fast Faces passed And I'm home bound
Staring blankly ahead Just making my way Making my way Through the crowd
And I need you And I miss you And now I wonder....
If I could fall Into the sky Do you think time Would pass me by 'Cause you know I'd walk A thousand miles If I could Just see you Tonight
It's always times like these When I think of you And I wonder If you ever Think of me
'Cause everything's so wrong And I don't belong Living in your Precious memories
'Cause I need you And I miss you And now I wonder....
If I could fall Into the sky Do you think time Would pass me by 'Cause you know I'd walk A thousand miles If I could Just see you Tonight
And I, I Don't want to let you know I, I Drown in your memory I, I Don't want to let this go I, I Don't....
Making my way downtown Walking fast Faces passed And I'm home bound
Staring blankly ahead Just making my way Making my way Through the crowd
And I still need you And I still miss you And now I wonder....
If I could fall Into the sky Do you think time Would pass us by 'Cause you know I'd walk A thousand miles If I could Just see you...
If I could fall Into the sky Do you think time Would pass me by 'Cause you know I'd walk A thousand miles If I could Just see you If I could Just hold you Tonight ------------------------------
oh yah, about 2012 resolutions for me, it would be : 1. to be able to meet him again (more of a wish than a resolution, but i don't care, i wanna see him again badly) 2. i wanna do well for this year! 3. get a new schoolbag T_T 4. springclean my room MYSELF before CNY (lol)
it's the freaking first day of school that i dreaded. it's back to soceity and civilisation. it's upper sec life alr. and i don't like it. i want to fast fast graduate ~ crap lah. sec 3 camp is in like 2 more days?! lol my bro says it's the best camp in sec sch life. but somehow i not looking forward leh T_T dk why also. AIYAH!!!!!
and idk if i should learn beatbox ornot leh.. it's 4 lessons are $65, and near raffles place. but idk if i should go learn, cos i find using my parents money like very... erm idk how say lah. i asked my mum, she say waste money. but i alr show people my interest in it and even ask how much liao lor! damn. idk if i should go ornot. my mum will say no. my dad will say okay. my bro will say anything. so how am i supposed to make a decision?! damn. i'm really interested in beatbox. aiya see how lah. i very frustrated now.
