I need You

Idk abt anything anymore.

I need Your guidance Lord. Help me to rely on You more and more each day, and not lesser and lesser each day. Help me Lord, I need more of You. Just You and You alone will make me whole. It has, have and will make me whole. I won't feel like I'm going around aimlessly without You Lord. More of You is all I need. I just need You, no one else, to wrap a blanket around me, comfort me and tell me You're gonna be with me through it all. Thank You so much for all the mercy, grace and wonder You've given us Lord. Give us Your peace, love and strength Lord. Holy, holy holy, is the Lord God almighty, who was and is and is to come. Awesome Lord, sovereign Lord, You reign and You reign forevermore. Help us Lord. Thank You so much. Forgive us our sins Lord, and help us not to repeat them. Thank You so much for Your unfailing love and just being God. Really thank You so so much for placing the peace in my heart now. Oh, You never fail to make me smile :) Thank You so much Lord, for making everything alright :)

I look to You, no one else. My rock, my salvation, my author, my deliverer, my shelter, my strong tower, my very present help in times of need. Not only in times of need but in times of joy, I'm never gonna stop praising You and just simply praising and worshipping You for who You are, cos You alone are God eternal, throughout earth and Heaven above. Thank You so much for everything Lord, help me to rely more and more on You and spend time with You Lord. I wanna know You more, so much more and know Your heart Lord. Thank You, for everything. In Jesus' name I pray,

Amen. :)


This verse spoke to me greatly :
When we are judged by the Lord, we are being disciplined so that we won't be condemned with the world - 1 Corinthians 11:32

Year 1

Year 1 can be summarised as just one word : fulfilling

Year 1 was fulfilling, fun, thrilling, crazy and enjoyable. It was an experience and a part of my life I will remember for life I think. This was the year I met so many awesome people, and changed my impression of Poly having lots of superficial people who just make use of you for grades and projects. Wanna thank my Year 1 clique for being so ever patient with me lololol and that's where I got the nickname "toilet queen". Yu Ting, Qian Wei, Duo Yun and Laurencia, you guys rock!! Will never forget our Mensa/Cai Fan/Ji Fan/ Toastbox/Mac/Subway/Bistro days :) And the zombie (nicknamed by DY) Joshua!! Haha thanks for being such a great bro to me, it's great to see both of us growing in the Lord and I am really glad we could be in the same proj grp for sem 1.1 :) If you all see this wanna say that all of you are awesome :)

And not forgetting my TPC babies hahah. My time in TP Chorale was one of the best moments ever.. Think it could prolly be my best moments in TP/Poly life so far. With Darius' awesome conducting and training us in music to sectionals to dancing and just fooling around hahahah. Shoutout to Gwendoline, Sinnie, Sharleen, Anthea, Chloe, Priscina, Patricia, Sophia, Eileen, Qing Yee, Angela, Zachary, Paula, Rachel, Yvonne, Shufang, Ru Hui, Dian, Khoo Hoe, Leona and many many more, whether you guys are juniors or seniors!! Really wanna thank you guys for being such great pals to be with and I still feel the bond w you all and w Choir even tho I've quit alr. Really thank God for the great times in Choir, tho they were mad, tiring and just plain crazy sometimes hahahah!!

Year 1 was great, despite the bad grades and stuff. That was where I learnt and really matured a lot from Sec Sch. Thank God for an awesome Year 1 and hopefully I don't have to take any supp papers!!

I'm sorry

After today.. I really felt I was being so bad and harsh. I'm so sorry for everything.. For the unforgiveness, the grudge and I feel this guilt etched so deep in my heart that if I don't apologise or start treating you better, I will die of guilt. I'm so sorry, why did I do that today? If you were hurt by my actions I'm really sorry. It's just.. I can't let go of the past. If you put yourself in my shoes you'd be angry too... right? I realised it's because of that unwillingness to let it go that unforgiveness came into my life and made me unable to forgive you. But hey I'm not perfect either, I must accept the fact that everyone makes mistakes. So if I've hurt you with my actions today, I'm terribly sorry Y. And whether you see this or not, I wanna let you know that deep down you've still got a friend in me, like what I wrote in the Christmas card (that is, if you still remember). I focused on all the bad stuff that happened and didn't think about the good stuff. Times we've spent tgt definitely was great and fun, and Idk abt you, but like what I said earlier, you've always got a friend in me. I'm just pissed and my action today was "in the moment" kinda thing. I'm so sorry, and pls don't get offended. I really do hope you'll understand. It's just that these few months, the whole thing's been weighing down on my pretty much and every night I feel this burden in my heart and I just feel like crying everytime I think about it you know? But what's done is done. It's all in the past. I must let go of it and bear no grudges. I'm sorry for everything I've done. You're one of the nicest people I know, and I hope you don't make the same mistake again. Choose wisely and carefully, and always think again before doing smth. I will treat you nicer from now on, and once again, I'm terribly sorry if my pissy actions made you feel bad. Don't blame yourself for whatever happened yeah? And I honestly do hope you can find someone you'll appreciate you for you.

Once again, I'm sorry.