it's new year's eve

so fast, 2009 passed in a blur liao. so far, in 2009, there was only 3.. and the last one is not gonna be forgotten easily. in fact i'm gonna wait until that day comes. today is the 10th day that i've waited. seems so short right? in fact, it seemed to me like a decade. each day passes so slowly.. yet over there each day passes so quick! i wish i can reverse time and go back to the 12 dec again... but yet, i can't. i can only wait for the next chance, and when it comes, i shall grab it with all my might and never let it go.

and yet again, 2009 passed so fast. my sec 2 life is over. argh i don't wanna go sec 3! i'm not prepared yet :( i look at the POA, core hist, physics, chems book all i sian diao alr. ESP CHINESE. HOW AM I GONNA SURVIVE CHINESE AGAIN. DIE LAH :X
hopefully there will be a miracle

my new year's wish is to be drunk, and have a hangover. yesh, you may all think i'm mad or crazy or whatever, but i don't care. i think of liquor as my thing. and my type of drink. i think of liquor as cover of sorrow. it covers up sorrow that people has in them. likewise, same to me. i felt so happy drinking the asahi beer and sake in hokkaido. well, but i WAS truly happy in hokkaido. come back here only, sigh...

well, i'm glad my cousin UNKNOWINGLY ( heh heh ;) ) bought some alcohol chocolates from germany for us :D had a great time eating it man. next time i'm gonna buy sake from sol mart alr. and when i turn 18, i'm gonna down myself with lotsa lotsa beer :D

haha and tuesday went out with SARAH :D went 313 @ somerset. WAH the forever 21 there got 4 storeys! cool :D and the uniqlo there so big! but cannot compare to JAPAN lah, hor? :) bought a 5 dollar shirt from cotton on, quite nice hahaha.

I'M SO NOT PREPARED FOR SEC 3 LIFE. ARGH... my hair is screwed, my bag is screwed (I FREAKING NEED A NEW BAG), and i no like to go back to school to face society and studies once again. i'm afraid i will burst out in tears any moment in school, and it would be like, so embarrassing! i'm afraid i will not be my usual happy-go-lucky self, and i would just sit there and sulk all day long. i'm afraid i will cast a loner image with my sorrow. well, i'll try to be happy! god has given me joy and happinessm i should thank him for it.

well, bye bye 2009, welcome 2010.

the promise :)

i just watched The Promise (向日葵的约定) ytd on channel u. it's a telemovie. wah seh it's damn nice can! and also very touching. it touched my heart and i almost cried :( and yes man, i want it to be a global wide movie, not only in singapore, but the whole world! it's so nice and touching..

well anyways, here is the info i got from channel u about the show :)

info :

Born with mild intellectual disability (MID) , slow in learning and often gullible , 19-year-old Shan Shan is an innocent and friendly girl. Like any teenager, Shan Shan is going through a coming of age, yearning for a special someone.

Tan Mei Juan , Shan's mother, is a single-parent mother who has raised her daughter single handedly. Extremely protective of Shan , Mei Juan devises a “sunflower pact”. If Shan ever falls in love and the boy she loves can fulfill the conditions as laid down in the “sunflower pact”, Mei Juan will give her blessings.

In a chance encounter, Shan falls in love with 19-year-old Wen Yuan who happened to be a slacker in his studies and life. Shan's innocence and attitude to life changed Wen Yuan. However w ill Wen Yuan accept a MID girl as his girlfriend? Is he the one to fulfill the “sunflower's pact”?

cast :

Lee Shan Shan, played by Julie Tan
19-year-old Lee Shan Shan is born with mild intellectual disability with an IQ between 60-75, equivalent to that of a 9-10-year-old . A happy-go-lucky girl she brings smile to the people around her. Although slow in learning, she has a strong sense of determination to achieve her goals.
Shan Shan is naïve in many ways and hence she risked getting cheated by others from time to time. Her mother is her protector in her daily life.
Since young, Shan Shan has been introduced to sunflowers by her mum, and she has grown to love them. Her room, collectibles and tastes revolve around sunflowers.
Her greatest wish is to travel to a big sunflower field with her loved one and admire the flowers.

Tan Wen Yuan, Sam, played by Lawerence Wong
19-year-old Wen Yuan is one with boyish good looks. He comes from a medium income family but turns out to be a slacker in studies and in life.
Easily disinterested in the things he does, Wen Yuan has no concrete idea of what his future holds for him.
His relationship with his Dad is turbulent and his dad hated him for failing his expectations, time and again. Wen Yuan withers his time away in comics and drawing, a talent that he is quietly proud of. He keeps to himself and projects a loner image. The fact is, he craves for someone to share his life and someone to appreciate him, as he is.

Lee Mei Juan, played by Lin Mei Jiao
38 -year-old Mei Juan is a young but strong single parent mother. She raised Shan Shan single handedly.
Mei Juan suffered in love when she was young. At 13-years-old, she fell in love and at a young age of 17-year-old, she gave birth to Shan Shan. Her boyfriend disappeared and left her shortly after that.
Feeling responsible for her daughter, Mei Juan worked doubly hard, feeling all that follows in her life, her daughter's condition and the amount of stress she has to undertake, is a retribution for her wayward behavior when she was young.
Mei Juan wanted a different life for Shan Shan. She created a bright and sunny world for her daughter, hoping to raise her “normal”, find her a normal job and to be independent.
But there is one thing she will not allow her daughter to get into - falling in love.

Paul Ng, played by Zhang Wen Xiang.
48-year-old Paul Ng is a owner of a bakery shop . Effeminate in his behavior , Paul has a positive outlook towards life. Paul is seemingly a very mean boss with high demands, but he is really kind at heart.
Paul is Wen- yuan 's uncle. He is close with Wen- yuan 's mum but at odds with Wen- yuan 's dad.
As his business is going downhill, Paul has to resort to employing Wen Yuan and subsequently Shan Shan at the bakery.
Initially, Paul is very skeptical of Shan Shan's working capabilities and her attitude. But Shan Shan's positive attitude would eventually win him over.



here is the theme song. it's damn nice too. aiya everything about the show's nice! i think it's aimed at those ppl who are prejudiced against those with low IQ. they want those ppl who are prejudiced to know that PPL WITH MID ARE HUMAN BEINGS TOO. they deserve to be respected.

I LOVE THIS SHOW! it really touched my heart. and the story is smth like my case too... so that's why it touched my heart..

-i'm waiting-

neorago

now i finally know why the song is called neorago (it's you). by super junior. now i know the meaning behind it. it's cos i gone through the same pain as the song lyrics said.
i've gone through it, and am still going through it.
why
why
why
isit cos god want me to be closer to him, so he put this obstacle in my life so i will go to him? yes i'm closer to god now, but i'm still feeling the pain of missing him... idk why i feel this way. i loved like never before.
this is one giant i have to face. i shall be like david and defeat the "goliath" in my life man!
i have to.
and if the answer is wait, i SHALL wait. but it can't be too long. if it's too long, i may not be able to take the pain. now i know how powerful emotional hurt and pain is. it's much much worse than physical pain and hurt. at least the physical ones can be healed. well, but the emotional ones take time. and it takes way too long.
i will wait.
god, pls don't let it be too long.
i know you know what's best for me.
but i can't help it.
my heart it's yearning.
jesus you are my best friend, you know everything that happens to me, everything i'm going through and have gone through. pls help me.
even though it's only been the 6th day, i feel like it's been 6 months instead.
lord help me, i need you, and i need him as well.

how am i supposed to breathe with no air, that's how i feel whenever you're not there, there's no air, no air.

and i feel really like bella. it's like something punctured through my heart.

but my heart will go on.

i missed the chance on the 21.
but when i have the next chance, i won't let it go. i shall grab it so that i can have you forever.

i will wait ~

crap i'm forgetting things..

crap i'm srsly forgetting alot of stuffs T_T

i forgot to write about the time we experienced the 41 degrees thingy in hokkaido. it's called the ice pavilion. extremely cold sia! LOL. but then after come out it's okay liao.

i also forgot to write that i fed swans and ducks! in hokkaido. oh wait, did i alr blog about it? aiyooo... aiya don't care lah i just gonna blog about the experience here :) haha the swans so cute! the duckys also :D

and i also forget to say about the ramen village. they said it was a ramen making factory, but we only went to the ramen village to eat dinner! -.- i think cos it was snowing uber heavily that time. rly like blizzard sia haha. but the ramen is still nice :D JAPANESE FOOD, FTW!

i miss hokkaido. i miss everything in hokkaido, the soft ice cream, the food, the snow, the cold, everything! i miss the 100 yen shop in sapporo, i miss the sapporo tower, i miss the otaru canal, i miss the looks of otaru (otaru looks like a very nice and historical place! their design damn good. smth like london), i miss the music box museum, i miss the japanese service, the extremely good and polite service. i miss their toiliet! I MISS HOKKAIDO'S EVERYTHING!

i will wait...

happiness god placed in me :)

forgot to say about the white chocolate factory ytd. WAH IT WAS DAMN NICE! it was like disney concept, the whole building. damn nice :) the place very class :D

i'm still waiting for god's answer. yes, wait, or no?
if it's yes, i'm sure i'll see him again very soon.
if it's wait, i shall wait no matter how long it is.
if it's no, i will get over it.
most likely it's wait. i just have this feeling, but i wanna confirm it. so i'm waiting for god's answer.
if we are fated to be, i'll definitely see him again.

haha and god gave me a sudden surge of happiness ytd and i became my normal self again :) then went out with dayna and told her about the whole thing. the happiness thingy, she said, it's definitely from god (and i know it myself too). but then there are maybe 2 reasons for the happiness.
1) is that happiness for me to get over it.
2) is that happiness for me that i will get to see him again.

i loved like never before.....

BACK FROM HOKKAIDO AND SHANGHAI!

hihi. i'm back from hokkaido and shanghai :D

it was from 12 dec to 21 dec :)

anyways, here is the itinery that my uncle emailed us. the itinery is not so accurate cos sometimes it reshuffled due to weather conditions in hokkaido. i will be adding some of my feelings and comments on the trip in the itinery haha.
bai si lian ren rocks! haha it's hokkaido's most famous product, which is white chocolate biscuit. the first time i tried the sample, i fell in love with it :) ALMOST EVERY SHOP got sell bai si lian ren :D

12 Dec 09 2215hrs - Assemble at Changi Airport Terminal 3 Row 5 for Check-in.
my god they took soooo freaking long just to check in the luggages. idk how the tour guide do the admin stuffs one.

DAY TWO - Shanghai to Chitose to Lake Toya *(breakfast on-board/lunch/dinner)
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13 Dec 09 0055hrs - Depart SG for Shanghai via MU544 (China Eastern Airline)
i hate china airlines.

13 Dec 09 0610hrs - Reach Shanghai for short rest and prepare for transfer flight

13 Dec 09 0815hrs - Depart Shanghai via MU279 to Hokkaido
finally, coming hokkaido le.

13 Dec 09 1215hrs (Japanese time, +1hr) - Reach Hokkaido for commencement of tour
YAY.

13 Dec 09 After 1230hrs - Proceed for lunch. Then to visit Jigokudani or "Hell Valley" for stroll in volcanic areas to see boiling ponds and steaming streams. Next to Mount Shauwu to see volcanic mountains from a distance. Then to Lake Toya area for dinner & accomodation arranged at Toyako Gyoen Honkan (0142-75-2445). Hot spring baths (complimentary) recommended at own leisure within the hotel premise.
i didn't go hot spring T_T cos my mum didn't go so i didn't too. only my dad, bro and uncle went. they said it was shiok. haha and had to sleep on tatami that day. the pillow like got beads inside. reminded me of the medicated pillows in korea.

DAY THREE - Lake Toya to Sapporo *(breakfast/lunch) dinner at own expense
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14 Dec 09 - After breakfast, Cruise in elegant Lake Toya to view seagulls, swans or possibly, deers! Snow activities available at ski resort but snow equipments are only available upon rental. Cost of snow mobile is 18000Y for twin-sharing, equivalent to SG$290. Thereafter, proceed to Ainu Village to witness lifestyles of Ainu via displays of their heirlooms. Next is the Bear Ranch, to see hundreds of little bears. Lunch provided for. Then to Sapporo TV Tower & Tanukikojo Shopping Arcade, for shopping spree. Evening to Seafood Market for self-arranged dinner and shops selling Hokkaido delicacies. Optional crab buffet with free flow of sake/drinks priced 8600Y pp, equivalent to SG$138. Accomodate at Sapporo APA Resort (0115-71-3111).
okay, i didn't go the snow mobile thingy, but built a small snowman and pulled each other o9n a sleigh. lol me, bro and cousin did these things. the stuff that involved the whole family was snowball fight. lol that was uber fun :) that place have alot of snow, and it's very memorable :D
the bear place so cute! got ducks there also rofl.
okay, Sapporo is COOL! haha we didn't go the crab buffet, so we ate dinner ourselves :) sapporo is damn cool, then we also went to the 199 yen shop and bought lotsa stuffs. then it was also snowing quite heavily in sapporo.

DAY FOUR - Sapporo to Asahikawa *(breakfast/lunch) dinner at own expense
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15 Dec 09 - After breakfast, advance to Otaru Music Box Museum, to view crafting of music boxes. Then to Kitachi Glass Shop, for its unique lamps and hand-blown glassware. Alongside, to enjoy sightseeing many shops lining Otaru Canal. After lunch, proceed to Ishiya White Chocolate Factory. Night accomodation arranged at Asahikawa Crescent Hotel (0166-27-1111). Dinner at own leisure.
haha after we went otaru canal, we went to the music box museum. all the music boxes damn cute cans! :D but didn't buy for fear of breaking it. then after that we roam outside the streets and bought soft ice cream. haha then from then on everyday we ate the soft ice cream. it was damn nice :)

DAY FIVE - Asahikawa to Sounkyo *(breakfast/lunch/dinner)
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16 Dec 09 - After breakfast, proceed to Otokoyama Sake Brewery Museum, experienced in sake brewing for 330yrs. Sake tasting sessions available at no costs. Then to Ramen Village to sample different varieties of ramen. After lunch, proceed to Asahikawa shopping streets for some great bargains. Dinner and accomodation provided for at Sounkyo Grand Hotel (0165-85-3111).
OMG the sake was GOOD!
then ramen village, also GOOD.
okay the dinner was buffet and got HOKKAIDO CRAB! lucky we never go the crab buffet that need to pay de :P hahaha, so our wishes got answered and we got to try the crab without paying for it :D rofl

DAY SIX - Sounkyo to Sapporo *(breakfast/lunch/dinner)
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17 Dec 09 - After breakfast, proceed to Sounkyo Gorge and take cable car (subject to weather conditions) to witness the beautiful Mount Daisetsu-zan, created by columnar cliffs, lined with worth-seeing shootiing star and silver river waterfalls. After lunch, transit to Sapporo for free and easy activities. Snow activities can also be opted on personal accounts. Dinner and accomodation arranged at the Tower Hotel (0167-57-2030).
wah the mount daisetsuzu damn nice. got extremely nice and scenic views :)
lol then the waterfall there so funny. it was frozen and got snow on top of it. i was like : this is a waterfall? LOL.
then me, bro and dad tried skiing. the skiing boots so hard to walk! and when i attached those long "legs" on my boots i cannot even walk liao. when skiing down, i lost balance and fell flat on my face. everyone laughing at me -.- my uncle took a vid of it. lol.

DAY SEVEN - Sapporo to Chitose *(breakfast/lunch/dinner)
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18 Dec 09 - After breakfast, advance to Asaki Beer Factory, one of famous beer brands in Japan. Then to another Lake for swan and scenic views. After lunch, embark on a 3hr journey back to Chitose for dinner. Accomodation arranged at Coms Shin-Chitose near the airport.
the beer factory was good too. hehe i also tasted the beer :)

DAY EIGHT - Chitose to Shanghai *(breakfast/lunch on-board) dinner priced 35RMB
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19 Dec 09 - After breakfast, transfer to airport for transfer to Shanghai.
19 Dec 09 1320hrs - Depart Hokkaido for Shanghai via MU280
19 Dec 09 1600hrs (Shanghai's time, same as SG) - Reach Shanghai
19 Dec 09 After 1600hrs - Transfer to Nanjing Shopping streets. Then to Fengshui Museum and dinner thereafter. Dinner at own expenses, priced at 35RMB pp. Accomodation arranged for Rayfront Xu Hui Hotel (86-0514-82987018). Optional night tours available at SG$50 - $70. We WONT be joining these tours.

DAY NINE - Shanghai *(breakfast)
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20 Dec 09 - FREE AND EASY. Not joining group tours

DAY TEN - Shanghai to Singapore *(breakfast/lunch on-board)
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21 Dec 09 - After breakfast, transfer to airport for return to SG.
21 Dec 09 1020hrs - Return to SG via MU567
21 Dec 09 1545hrs - HOME SWEET HOME

haha basically i loved hokkaido, but NOT shanghai. then hokkaido was also the first place i tried my very first beer and wine (sake) :D
haha i also tried abalone. they literally cook it in front of you. haha we have the vid of it.
there was also family love and warmth throughout the trip :)
haha my tour guide (the one bringing us to from sg to hokkaido, from hokkaido to shanghai and from shanghai back to sg) was cute! haha then got another tour guide in hokkaido. that one is dua tao. then shanghai also got another dua tao. basically the cute one is a small fry.
hokkaido is also a place for me where love formed. i regretted not having any action or responding. but i have to get over it no matter what. maybe, if there is fate, we will meet each other again. hopefully. if i meet you again, my heart maybe would not be as pain as it is now. pls god, help me through this.

hokkaido, FTW!
*AHGUMON, CHIONG! (lol this is inside stuff)

HOKKAIDO HERE I COME!

HOKKAIDO HERE I COME!

haha taking midnight flight today.

pls don't msg or call me while i'm away ty :)

i'll be coming back on 21/22 :D

YAY FOR HOKKAIDO!

1 more day

1 more day!

oh yah pls don't msg or call me from tmr to 21/22. tyty :)

never in my life had i felt so satisfied before.. :D

NEVER IN MY LIFE HAD I FELT SO SATISFIED BEFORE :D
bought 17 (actually it's 18 cos got 2 stuck tgt then even i didn't know until i got home) SUPER JUNIOR CALENDARS and 1 sheet of suju M stickers. i didn't even know why i bought suju M one. cos apparently i don't give a shit about super junior M. lol. then the calendars are those small small card size like ones. it's for 2010 :) haha next year can use :D
bought those from simei eastpoint.

YAY 2 MORE DAYS TO HOKKAIDO AND SHANGHAI!! WOOHOO!! :D

die lah :X i still have cough. hope it will get better. it will, cos i've prayed :D

TABBY IS OUT :(

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. TABITHA IS OUT!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
now i'm siding with sylvia. i don't want sezairi to win :@

out with dayna at marina!

HEHEHE YTD I CUT MY NAILS, ONLY LEFT MY MIDDLE FINGER LONG ^^

haha today went out to marina with dayna :)
omg the rain was freaking heavy -.- then wait till the rain not so bad then go out haha. bought tickets for new moon (yes, i'm watching it again :D). we got the 2 seater one! YAY. haha ate lunch at yoshinoya. OMG THEN DAYNA SAW TABITHA WALKING PAST with some other a man and a lady. then i was quite sure that the lady is sylvia. haha i think it's her bah :D i'm pretty sure it is.
then walk walk around, play those arcade machine, those slot $1 inside one, then have a chance to win smth. dayna got a big bird! and i got a STITCH :D plus a minnie which dropped out cos the thingy too full lol LOL. YAY I LOVE THE NEW STITCH <3 then after watching new moon, go dinner :D lol at swensens. then went back :)

charles is out :'( :(((((

okayy, so a few moments ago was the results show on SI. damn sadd cans! charles is out :(((((( i damn sad can! well, but that's not the last we all will see of him ;) who knows, later he become my beatbox teacher ^^ hehehehehehehe. lol. i anyhow say one :X hmm but i'm srsly considering to learn beatbox. my mum also approved of it liao, so WHY NOT? hahah
and now that charles is out (cries), then i'll wanting tabitha to become the next singapore idol :)

and what i wanna say of charles is that :
1. he has a very soulful and nice voice in which i LIKE alot alot.
2. he's a darn good and awesome beatboxer!
3. he's really talented :)
4. he plays the guitar well! hahah

CHARLES, YOU'LL ALWAYS BE THE WINNER (other than tabitha) TO ME :D



and like, this guy is really good at beatboxing! i like how he does hum and beat :)
PS : crab stratch is cool! and charles beatboxing is damn good can! hahah (duh, he's a beatboxer).

thanks sarah :)

THANKS SARAH FOR THE LOVELY BANGLE AND VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY EXTREMELY NICE CARD YOU GAVE ME :D cya back here in sg in a while! :)

heh heh 12 MORE DAYS TO HOKKAIDO! yay snow and yay winter, HERE I COME! (soon)

YAY MY BDAY! ; NEW MOON!

haha as most of you know, 26 NOV IS MY BDAY! that's 2 days ago hahah. i slept to my heart's desire, woke up at 11, then slacked at home :) then at evening went orchard hotel (YAY DRUNKEN PRAWNS!) for bday buffet :D haha it was satisfying. and the cake's great too! haha just that, well, didn't get awfukky chocolate cake. haha that one christmas then buy. but the cake's great and thanks to my family for everything :D

haha i also wanna thank everyone who wished me happy birthday too :D LAUREN, thanks for the jacket yea? haha really love it man! :DDD hahahaha. oh yes i got a DS and super junior don't don (2nd) album from family and family friends :D YAY, thanks to them too :D

then ytd went tampines and (FINALLY) bought a pair of shoes for hokkaido trip :) with my parents haha. then met up with cell for new moon! lol missed the first 5 min D: lol i'm going to watch again still. i find the best part is when the werewolves are chasing victoria. that's really cool :D and the volturi part too haha. dakota fanning (jane) : PAIN. then edward : AHHHHHHH. LOLOLOLOLOL. but yeah, dakota's gift is really cool too. makes you feel you are in great pain. haha and TAYLOR LAUTNER IS DARN HAWT! 8 PACKS SIA!! WOOTS! :D
and then had cell at my house. i lead icebreaker! LOL mahtong again. i decided we long time never play, so played. and PL3 joined us for cell :) then celebrated mine and lydia's bday. and watched paranormal activity -.- lucky the one we got is not the very scary version hehe :}

and today went out with parents (MY BRO SLEEPING -.-) to eat dinner and buy shoes for my mum for the hokkaido trip. lol and here i am now -.-

YAY TODAY MORNING I ON THE COMP, FIRST THING I SEE IN MY INBOX IS CHARLES ACCEPTED MY FRIEND REQUEST! YAY!!!!!: :DDDDDDDDDD

YAY CHARLES ISN'T OUT!

YAY CHARLES ISN'T OUT! lol no one got eliminated. this round don't have elimination. so this week's votes are added on to next week as well. YAY THANK GOD!! :D thank you so much lord :D

now i know why stitch!

i know why charles chose stitch as his beatbox name liao! LOL "cos there was a scene in lilo and stitch where stitch opened his mouth and there was gramophone inside playing all sorts of music... hence the beatboxing name stitch =)" lol it was from charles, he was replying someone on youtube who asked him why stitch. haha now i know! anyways, go charles! JIAYOU!!! for today haha

today went to hair journal cut hair haha :D and my bro sign up for his member card liao! so YAY more discounts

and tmr is the day! YAY haha

friday going to watch new moon preview :D hhaha just need to pay abit more only. yet again, THANKS TO ROYSTON for helping us all book! :D

LOL LAUREN

LOL. lauren just said hi to me on fb, she's in perth airport. haha the flight is delayed -.- haha lauren, cya back here in sg! 18 more days it's my turn liao :P

and ytd went ot watch 2012 with jerolyn! haha quite nice and good :D but a little scary too haha. and it's like so ironic. CET ytd was about evolution of the earth, but yet we were there watching about the world ending/repeating. haha yes, we didn't attend CET -.-

and i srsly hope charles won't be out. he is one talented guy man. esp the beatbox! :D and you guys just gonna check out this vid man. it's darn cool. charles is definitely better than that beatboxer in the a cappella concert haha

a cappella concert

today went with choir to see a cappella concert at esplanade. haha quite good, they're the group that came school when post exam activity. now is plus more ppl in the group. the beatboxer christopher is really good! LOL but i just know charles wong is the best :D lol and we learnt very basic beatboxing.

2 good news in an hour. how sweet :)

2 GOOD NEWS IN AN HOUR, HOW SWEET :D
haha anyways, the good news are amelia telling me smth ;) i'm really high and crazy bout it now haha.
and the other good news is that CHARLES ISN'T OUT! HE'S STIL IN! YAY. instead faizal is out (no offence to those who likes faizal). and i am super happy cos of these two things :D YAY YAY YAY YAY!! charles, i just know you can do it and win sg idol! JYJY!!! :DDDD charles, you can do it! <3

anyways, i'm so in love with cai ming you now :D haha his smile really captivates and mesmorises me :D haha his smile is what i like best. and his looks are so worth swooning over. his voice is good! what more can i say, he's just like charles :D hahah

I'M GOING F3-4! WAAAA

it was all very ironic... ytd night i dreamt i going f3-4. and today when i check on eportal, i REALLY DID go f3-4 -.- and my subjects are :
english
chinese
Emaths
ss/geog
phy/chem
POA
core history
these are my subjects i'm taking next year! :O DANG IDK WHY I GOT POA!! I WANT MY PURE BIO!!!!! :(((((( MY PURE BIO!! :((( WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. I CRY LIAO AH! :'(
hmm, and i kinda regretted choosing core hist too. idk why O:
át first i was quite sad, cos i never take pure bio, and they give me poa :( and angry too :@
then i was happy, cos i see those ppl whose class same as mine next year. got ppl like FELICIA, AMELIA, GILLIAN, DAYNA, dana, yanting and quite alot of my class ppl haha. but yah, i'm happy that at least got felicia and amelia haha.

YTD WAS FUN!
haha went kallang leisure the kbox :) AND BOUGHT MY KIDDY DRINKS FROM SOL MART! YAY. haha. sing sing sing. then i was shocked at the bill. how come GST and service charges so high?! -.- haha then went to wait for fiddle bus. dammit, it headed to tanjong rhu instead. don't even know where the hell is that -.- haha then waited VERY LONG for bus 11 to come. haha and take mrt home. inside the mrt damn packed :O

PARAMORE'S NEWEST ALBUM!

YAY I FINALLY GOT MY NEWEST PARAMORE ALBUM!!! WOOTS! :DDD
went out with cousin faustina ytd :D went marina, then raffles city, then bugis. lol. and wah, we came at around 11 plus at marina. FIRST TIME i see yoshinoya, LJS, BK and KFC sooo empty! haha and ate yoshinoya :) hmm then went to buy the paramore album (YESHHHH!!) at HMV at citylink then went to raffles city. got some loud drumming going on. and then walk walk walk. then decided to go bugis. haha then go bugis hog the table at foodcourt :} hehehehehe. i like the shirt she gave me :D haha thanks man cousin! :) and the SUJU POSTER!!! YES!! :DD haha thanks alot alot alot alot :DD then after that went home. and went cell.
lauren's in either melbourne or sydney now :O hahha. we'll miss her, but i have dayna! hahah :D and 4 weeks from now, IT'S MY TURN TO GO HOLIDAY!! YAY. haha so funneh sia, i leave 1 day before they all leave for church camp, thought can go combined service say byebye to them first, in the end found out i going 1 day before they leave for church camp -.- then they go there 4days come back singapore i still in hokkaido. i leave earlier than them but come back later. i come back already 23rd dec liao leh! the next day's christmas eve :O haha but what to do. they go malaysia i go hokkaido AND shanghai -.- hahah.
today just went for winter shopping with mum and dad. hmm bro wasn't around but the stuff we bought for him he can fit hahahaha. came back and decided to wear aunty mary's jacket LOL. share with my mum, and buy another jacket for us to share also haha. when lauren comes back i'm going to tell her hahaha :D
TMR GOT SERVICE AND CET.

LOOKING FORWARD TO MONDAY!

LOOKING FORWARD TO MONDAY! all cos felicia so enthu bout it, affect me too heh :)

and lauren is already up in the air on the plane on her way to aussie. god, protect her, let her go there safely, grant her journey mercy, and bring her back safely lord. thank you so much :D let her enjoy her trip there in aussie :D

i LOVE "when you believe"! :D haha choir we're currently learning it now for orientation (the this year batch of p6s coming in next year) and with another song, "sing me a song".

hahaha dang. i want to watch 2012 real bad :(

and tmr going out with cousin faustina! :D

idk what to blog about liao -.-

ahaha ytd duane was kicked out! poor him :( haha. and CHARLES <3 sang insomnia ytd!!! :DDDDDD YAY!!!!! :DDD ehhe. charles rock! his beatbox is good. and his singing not bad either. HE BETTER WIN. hahahha

_|_ the girl who hates paramore

WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE?! PARAMORE IS GOOD. THEY'RE A LEGEND. YOU HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO RIGHT TO SAY PARAMORE LIKE THAT. AND OH, YOU JUST BROKE MY HEART WHEN YOU INSULTED HAYLEY LIKE THAT. I MEAN, YOU SAID SHE HAS NO BOOBS, WHAT ABOUT YOURSELF!!!! YOU KNOW YOU SUCK. SCOLDING BANDS THAT PEOPLE LIKE IS NOT ONE WAY TO GET POPULAR ON YOUTUBE. UH-UH. IT'S JUST A WAY TO GET INSULTED BY MILLIONS! YOU ARE STUPID. IF YOU HATE THOSE BANDS (ESP PARAMORE) THEN WHY VOICE OUT? AND GET INSULTED BY MILLIONS IN THE END. THAT'S NOT THE WAY. IF YOU DO LIKE THAT, MEANS I CAN ALSO CREATE AN ANTI-SS501 VID?! HEY, I'M NOT AS STUPID AS YOU TO CREATE VIDS AND INSULTS FAMOUS BANDS. I'M WAY SMARTER THAN YOU. YOU CREATE ABOUT 10 MINS OF WHAT YOU DON'T LIKE, BUT ONLY HAVE 1 MIN OF WHAT YOU LIKE. O.O WHO IN THE RIGHT MIND WOULD DO THAT, I ASK YOU. well, i shan't say further. i know you live on ppl's attention and insults. well, that makes you a TOTAL LOSER! and get that in your head!

happy belated bday felicia chua!

HAPPY BELATED BDAY FELICIA CHUA!! eh btw NC16 no kick lah! wait till M18/R21 *wink* :}
haha and ytd kbox! :D wtf, hardly any paramore songs, i can only find misery business. lucky got avril lavigne songs <3 and best is lin jun jie songs!! :DD
then went to pay respects to my aunty at my cousin's church.
then came back home.
ugh today i feel worse than ytd -.- and lauren has got my rofl-ing at cow and chicken theme song. MAMA HAS CHICKEN. MAMA HAS COW. DAD LOOKS PROUD, HE DIDN'T CARE HOW.
LOL.

imagine that

hoho. i'm like listening to the OSTs of ILJIMAE!!! :DDD mostly are classical, but I LIKE! :D hey i like classical before i like rock/punk one okay! :) that's why my LOVE is PIANO <3
okay whatever, and yesterday went tampines to watch imagine that with amelia, felicia, and wenting. at aljunied mrt there ran into shermaine and some other jokers. haha very qiao, they also going tampines. and in the train AGAIN ran into amelia. haha then met up with felicia at tampines mrt and go buy ticket. for da movie :D it's quite nice lah haha :) then went T1 (tampines 1) walk walk. and went into MY FAV SOLMART!! :DD bought some kiddy drink. only managed to open it when i got home -.- i still don't know what kind of taste it is. very artificial, but NICE :D haha got home, realised my bro not home yet -.- i wanted to ask him help me transfer some songs to my phone. then when he came back i forget to ask again -.-
HEH HEH I INFLUENCED AMELIA TO WATCH MS SWAN INSTEAD OF SHINEE!! :}}} heheheheehhehe

jacket hunting!

saturday evening went to kallang leisure with family hunting for winter down jacket for hokkaido! :D haha and my bro finally took up the "challenge" to eat MY BELOVED KIMCHI RAMYUN :} KIMCHI RAMYUN, I LIKE! :D esp my ooh so nice and beloved KIMCHI :} doesn't it look NICE AND DELICIOUS AND YUMMY?!! :DDDDD

and anw, my bro was the only one who bought gloves and jacket. the jacket didn't appeal to me, and so did the gloves -.- and ran into dayna abt kallang leisure too haha.
and after combined service was love your neighbour day! got block 106 and did it with lauren. then ate lunch at mac. walked with dayna to mrt and buy mr bean. the chocolate soya milk, got pearls inside one. wah very full after that. and dayna came my house for awhile haha :D
WAH ytd night was the BEST DREAM I EVER HAD!! :D got suju inside one :D okay, i shall start from here (i copy and paste from msn convo :)) :
erm at first
me dayna and some others
we were in school
but wearing outside clothes
the some others are church ppl
then after that
suddenly got ppl come and attack
they alr said they wanted to attack.
i think vampires or smth.
but anyways
then
we prepare our equipment and weapons
then dayna got first to be attacked
so i was watching with some other kpoh ppl
then their fight is like the computer games one
have the life
and smth like rs
hitpoints haha
so then dayna almost going to die liao
(cos somehow i was on the safety seat, which means no one can attcak me :S)
then i got out of there
then i help dayna
then i quickly ran back to my safety seat and the attacker was killed
then i think everyone was fighting, even me
but i always had this someone around me
and that someone keep telling me it's dangerous
i think that someone from church one
idk very blur
before they all vanished
we had to challenge them to a car race
like, not we drive the car
is idk also, but just a car race
then i think got machines one
anw very bizarre
then super junior were the ones vending the machines!!! :D
then we won
then i leaned on the edge of a pillar
then i saw EUNHYUK and SHINDONG :DDD
like, suddenly below me
i shouted to SHINDONG, asking where SUNGMIN was :)
then SHINDONG cannot hear (too far from me), so EUNHYUK help me tell him :}
then SHINDONG say he don't know where is SUNGMIN
then i was quite sad lah :(
then i turn, suddenly LEETEUK and DONGHAE was beside me :DDDDDD
i was both happy and sad
happy cos we won, sad cos SUNGMIN dunno where
so i go and HUG LEETEUK leh! :DDDDDDDD
then he hug me back :DDDDDDDD
i also got hug DONGHAE :DDD
then the dream end alr :(
damn still dunno where SUNGMIN is :@

200th post!

HEY THIS IS MY 200TH POST! YAY YAY YAY :D lol i so xin fen for nth -.-
anw, i found out i write my address wrong in the sec 3 camp consent form. I'M IN DEEP SHIT :(
and today last day of school. happy and sad.... oh and huilun came back to visit today! LOL :D
so far this year i realised i only have 2. used to be more. looks like i'm more faithful :O lol kidding. but it's so pain and i wonder how i'm gonna survive the holidays :( BUT I WILL! WITH THE LOVE OF GOD I WILL! :D even if no one loves me (in which it's false!), i know i have god! :D

HAPPY ENDING BY AVRIL LAVIGNE :D

SO MUCH FOR MY HAPPY ENDING

childhood memories :)

today got some NE learning trip. lucky i prepared pocky ytd alr :X lol ornot nth to munch on the bus. amelia says i keep eating pocky (which is true, after all :D). the trip to various places was quite okay lah haha. and partnered with jolene! :D on the bus we keep talking about the past lol. missed the days when she and her bro was just staying 3 storeys above me and my bro. haha she told me that at first, the first time me and her met, my bro ask us to talk to each other, make friend. then she said she remembered that we both very shy, then write on a notebook to each other :S lol and the time she and her bro came my church, then she said she remembered it was darn cold. i only remembered the part where we were in the carpark -.- LOL. and i also remembered the past, whereby me and my bro went to her home, then my bro make her bro take a marble from the fish tank. and then my bro bday party, and her bro bday party :D so cute sia she have her bro bday party pic (whereby i'm inside!) and i have my bro bday pic (whereby she's inside too haha!). but that was all in the past. haha now i look back and smile at all the things we've done tgt :DDD i also smile at myself when i was small. all these things took place in SIMSVILLE. MY FORMER HOME AND PLACE WHERE ALL THE CHILDHOOD MEMORIES ARE :D remembered my bro has his first ice cream cake bday. remembered all the functions and bbqs we had back there. remembered how me and my mum always used to go to the back gate (there's a bus stop there) and take bus to my uncle's house in kembangan. remembered how we used to go to the gym (not so frequently). remembered how we used to go swimming, and my dad had to keep having swimming lessons for us so that we can swim, and i CAN SWIM!! :D remembered that was the place where my bro kept polishing his BB boots (we moved out when i was sec 1 and when he was year 1 in poly). remembered how my bro keeps bringing back his friends (OOPS) and i kept disturbing them :P remembered how we had painting in holidays. remembered how my mum had spent so much time bringing up us tho she was busy with the childcare (she was with the childcare at that time) :D haha my convo with her really brought me back to childhood times, and when we were playing tgt haha :D see, jolene, i told you i'd be blogging about it. and here it is! :D hees xD well, it's da lovely and amazing childhood days :DDD and i really thank god for sucha wonderful childhood he has given us :D

in line skating -.-

PARAMORE ROCKS, THEY JUST DO :DD



in line skating (don't know if i spelt it correct -.-) today for some YOG stuff in school today. only for my level -.- damn, i almost cannot stand up, but i did. and then i almost fell down when *walking* on the skates. THANK GOD TODAY FIRST RECESS. ESCAPED! :DD heng ah ~
hmm then got choir briefing after school, thank god none of the choir stuffs clash with my trip :D
YAY SCHOOL GONNA END SOON!
AND JY THOSE O LEVEL PPL! :)

cloudy with a chance of meatballs

LOL went to watch cloudy with a chance of meatballs ytd. quite nice :) oh my tian then in the morning i was like trying to book the tix, then stupid golden village keep rejecting! argh but finally can after some tries haha :D then heard time for miracles by adam lambert <3 in the sports shop. lol i was prcatically singing along to it :DD <3
and then met up with mum after her school concert then ate sakae. yumyum :) went home and watch G-Force. haha damn funneh and cute sia :D
today cet, then service, then home
oh yah today decided (or was it god telling me?) that i should give up :) and i decided, yes there's no point in it, i should just give up. i felt like god telling me there's no point, and what for be hurt by it :) SO YES, I'M GIVING UP! THANK GOD :D
so fast sch ending -.- lol ending is good and bad. i hope everyone will stay same class, i LOVE this year the class! :)

happy belated bday yilin!

HAPPY BELATED BDAY YILIN! sorry forget to post ytd :P hey, but i did wish you by sms, facebook okay! :DD hees xD see i so good to da jie right? xD haha anw, happy birthday! thanks for everything :)

and later gonna watch cloudy with a chance of meatballs :O MEATBALLS, I LIKE! :D esp the subway ones xD

JYJY JEROLYN FOR O LVL! MONDAY START LIAO! JYJY! we're behind you :)

TIME FOR MIRACLES :D

ON DAYNA'S BDAY CLASS CELEBRATED HER BDAY! lol
AND CLASS ALSO CELEBRATED YILIN'S AND GABRIEL'S BDAY TODAY! hahah :D i hope she will like her present me and felicia got for her hahah :D happy early bday yilin! :)

TIME FOR MIRACLES BY ADAM LAMBERT ROCKS!!! TOTALLY!! THE SONG LYRICS SO MEANINGFUL AND NICE :D!!! :DDD <3 must listen!! damn nice :) i'm bent on watching 2012 now hahaha


lyrics for time for miracles :
It's late at night and I can't sleep
Missing you just runs too deep
Oh I can't breathe thinking of your smile

Every kiss I can't forget
This aching heart ain't broken yet
Oh God I wish I could make you see
Cuz I know this flame isn't dying
So nothing can stop me from trying

Baby you know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
No I ain't giving up on us

I just want to be with you
Cuz living is so hard to do
When all I know is trapped inside your eyes

The future I cannot forget
This aching heart ain't broken yet
Oh God I wish I could make you see
Cuz I know this flame isn't dying
So nothing can stop me from trying

Baby you know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
No I ain't giving up on us

Baby can you feel it(feel it)
You know I can hear it(hear it)
So can you feel it feel it....

You know it's time....

Baby you know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love

You know I ain't giving up on us
You know I ain't giving up on
Oh I ain't giving up on us

HISTORY!

got back history and chinese paper 1 results.
history : 74.5 damn! 0.5 more marks can get A1 liao! ARGH.
chinese paper 1 : part 1 i got 13/20 (or isit 11? aiyah cannot remember lah) then part 2 i got 26/40.
total chinese score for EOY is 59.5.... again, get another 0.5 more can get 60 -.-

happy bday dayna! :)

firstly, HAPPY BDAY DAYNA! :D haha may god always bless you, and sister and bffs forever yeah? :DDDDD <3 <3 <3 haha me, lauren and sarah actually went out ytd to make her bday vid. lol :D so ya, hope dayna's happy? :D HHAHA
and got back maths paper 2 le! 33/50 :) so total for maths is 70.5/100!! OMG FIRST TIME I GOT A2 (OR EVEN A) FOR MATHS! IT'S PHENOMENAL! THANK GOD SOO MUCH :DDDDD
and english paper 2 was 30/50 :D haha also first time leh! hees xD
d&t : 53.5/100 :) pass can liao lah! :)
geog : 62/100
haha so thank god soo much for all the good results :D <3
and history haven't come out yet! cos mdm chua didn't come today. mdm chua, faster get well! :D

i really love hot and cold by katy perry :D

video making :)

HAHAH today was uber fun! :D went plaza sing with sarah and lauren. watched 500 days of summer. ROFL in the same theatre we got 2 movies :} one on the screen one in front of us. hehehe.... :} if you know what i mean eh hahaha :} NO OFFENCE THOUGH!
anyway today was really fun hahah :D
and i bought my sungmin strap from comics connection! like, FINALLY! :DDDD hees xD

aiya! tmr got school! and knowing our results liao haha so excited :)
and i dunno if got choir ornot leh :X

wah sian ytd i couldn't sleep! and thruout the WHOLE night i was thinking of the song insomnia by wheesung -.- like, DAMN, couldn't sleep until around 3? lol but wheesung is cool! :D

got back results...

got back some of the results on friday. omg, i so don'tlike my results.
science: 54.5/100 :(((( this is the most saddest thing that ever happened in my sec 2 life!! CRIES...:( chances of taking pure science next year is low liao :((
chinese paper 2: 35/70 ROFL finally pass paper 2 :)
literature : 64/100
maths paper 1 : 37.5/50 i am terribly upset with this one also. so many ppl got 40 over, i only get 30 plus?!! damn. somemore the paper so easy, i cry :(
english paper 1 : 43/60
part 1 = 20/30 lol this one is narrative and ms yee commented on my compo "sounds like a korean drama. autumn in my heart?" and i was like, laughing when i saw the comment. at first i thought my storyline was different from autumn in my heart, but then at night (after cell, at home) i found out that the storyline was same as mine -.- lol hahah. then at the end she commented "sounds rather melodramatic". ROFL. but it's true, it is melodramatic.
part 2 = 23/30 this one is the report writing.

and this is all for my results known so far :O haha
and then at night on friday have cell haha. then went home.
haha i'm like currently listening to you belong with me by taylor swift :) haha this song won the best female music video at the VMAs de okay! lol :D i like this song, alot alot :D haha
tmr have church. haha and before that got cet -.- oh, tmr gonna know who the new youth pastor is!! actually we alr know his name, but almost everyone forget how he look like (he came to our church before) hahah so yah.
and lastly,
I WANT A LOLLIPOP PHONE!!

exams finish ytd! :)

exams finished ytd! :) and then during oral i kept laughing. after every sentence i reply the teachers, i will laugh and smile at the teacher lol. then huang lao shi so cute, she laugh with me :D and infront, kathleen and jolene can hear me laugh. means i laugh so loud :O LOL. *falls off chair*
and dnt totally screwed up. paper 2 hard, dunno how to do.
tmr know results liao. JYJY me and F2-3!! :D
omg, and my love and passion for piano is really going strong :D good, good! :) haha piano, for the win! :D
and i want a lollipop phone! for those of you who doesn't know what's a lollipop phone, listen to lollipop by 2NE1 and big bang. they did the song for the lollipop commercial :) the lollipop phone is smth like icecream phone, and omg i love it and i want it :D and the on top has flashing lights! and the lights can create yourself, and can also move one! can move from left to right de. hahah so cute :D and cool :D I WANT LOLLIPOP PHONE!


i srsly dunno how i'm even listening to G-Dragon lor. lol. he's weird, but i find him quite cool hahah.

give up! petty!!

PETTY! i'm giving up! and you needn't worry now. i shall listen to my friends' advice! i should've known better. do you look like you care? no. and you think i do? no. so, it's better to give up, isn't it? the reality of life.

sigh... WHY?!!

why did it have to happen during exams time?! WHY WHY WHY!!! well, even if you know NOW, so what? i know so what sounds rude, but i can't think of any other words. i'm sorry if you're gonna be pissed or whatever. but i must tell you that even if you know, so what? and you may be thinking, you know then know lah. what's wrong. but i will still say so what no matter what (make no sense?? O.O) i can understand that you may be angry or whatsoever. but i can't help it. my way of speech is like that.
betrayer! i didn't expect it to be someone in my group.. :( what can i do? what's done is done. and you (yes YOU) needn't worry either.
thank god felicia is my friend :)

hist and maths paper 1 over!

today hist and maths paper 1 completed! hist write until hand pain. hope i do well in essay and source based. esp source based! i screwed up today :( my source based all along very not good one.
maths paper 1 was unexpectedly EASY! :DD thank god for that haha :)
today no cell. so can stay home study. see i go guai right xD
next mon got geog and sci. better get A1 for my sci if not my place in pure bio may be lost :(
oh and wed was my bro's bday! my mum bought icecream cake for him (jealous) from swensons haha. and i'm growing fatter! cos almost everyday eat mac the icecream (ahem ahem felicia liangyue jinqyng cough cough) went to subway to buy his cookies on his bday.
that night i went to see doc too. runny nose and phelgm. so my parents say go take medication better than falling sick during exams. haha so yah :)
I'M SO GLAD THAT EXAMS GONNA OVER LIAO! WOOTS!

not so bad.

the pain was not so bad today, but before recess it was......
well, after being happy and going high after recess, then i find it not so bad liao. so i gonna stick to being happy and high again :DD hhahah.. after exam then bother lah :D hehe.. and i forgot to bring my keys! :( sp had to wait until either bro or mum gets home then can go home HAHA. meanwhile, while waiting, we went library again. and in class played truth or dare. haha quite funneh.
anw, i strating to really like classical stuff and instruments right now. so i was searching for goong, and then i listened to these instrumental ost. damn nice :

heartache... but i shall not let it affect my studies :)

i decided not to let the heartache/heartpain i'm feeling right now to affect my studies, esp exams!!! i shall not let it affect exams!! I SHALL FOCUS ON EXAMS AND ONLY EXAMS! after exams i can bother abt this liao lah :) haha.. i shall only bother about this after exams!! :) I SHALL AND I WILL!
i will not bother about it right now!

give up, or give up not?

it's pain. it's hurting. i should give up :( because of what happened ytd, i cannot be guang ming zheng da anymore. i have to pretend. i cannot do this. hide here hide there... well, the only solution is to give up. i lost it. damn. but i'm considering giving up. do not tell me anything about... it hurts so much. but thanks to wenting and lauren i feel better :)
here is the piano on tree of heaven. my, i love this :) tree of heaven will always be my favourite korean drama :D cos thisis the only show that made me cry for so long.... :)

english and chinese EOY!

english paper was practically okay. scare i won't pass. but i know I WILL! :D
chinese paper was okay. hahah. i also scare i fail. but again, i know I WILL PASS!! :D hehe..
today after sch, waited for felicia with jinqyng and liangyue. then went to eat sundae at macs. then went to search for stickers, and bought a super junior sticker *yay* :D then went aljunied popular, my correction tape refill sill don't have. after that went to library, and played truth or dare. lol super funneh. and then suddenly got some guy walk pass (we were on the floor), then we all bei xia dao. then we all say : xia dao wo. then he turn and say : sorry lah. wl! he can hear?! LOL. and after that went home. and here i am. after eating and etc. am tired now. haha

tmr is english EOY!

TMR IS ENGLISH EOY!! CANNOT BELIEVE IT.
and today pe i was quite happy :) hehe... and our team is the winning team! we play against all the other teams and we won over them!! :DDD thanks to kajal :D haha and we also keep laughing during pe, cos of what kajal says. LOL nice work leader! :) oh i forgot to say we played softball :) i suck at pitcher, but i only had to catch the ball around 4 times so not so bad :) hahaha

embarrassing again...

very embarrassing again today!!! :( lol but also very shuang! :D
anw i know my therapy for stress and frustration :} hehe... :) somebody called tweetie :) ahhahaha
today watched a video on abortion. very poor thing the baby :(

embarrassing, yet SHUANG!

today was embarrassing. very embarrassing. but after i think of it ah, quite shuang leh! LOL. don't xiang wai lah, it's today during recess time yeah. HOR FELICIA, AMELIA, CLARICE, JINQYNG?!!?!?! hyeheeheehheeh.
SPASTICNESS KEEPS ME GOING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOTS

i changed blogskin!

I CHANGED MY BLOGSKIN! :D i like this. srsly :) it's a skin based on it's you (by suju!) that's why i like, cos it's you is my fav suju song :D hehe and yah, those pics up there are those of super junior members :D such as leeteuk, heechul, and sungmin <3 haha i like this skin!

TIC TOC, NO IT'S THE CLOCK AGAIN

dammit. time is running shorter and shorter. next thurs and fri is alr my eng and chi papers!! DAMN :(
and tmr i have to do praise and worship. haven't even printed out the lyrics. just starting on it only. wl. i am procrastinating until i dunno when... :(
felicia just had a new name for him. tweetie. cute name!!! :DDD
and lauren asked me to blog about her. so dua bai. hehe :}
okay i shall blog about all my best friends :D starting with this labbage lauren, followed by dayna, and other best friends :)
LAUREN CHEE - haha.. i have many many things to say about this person. basically a person who likes to prank me. a person who LOVES cabbage, ducks, broccolies, veggies, and other random stuff lah :) she loves ppl too (me! me! me!) <3 and also is my best friend! HAHAH. oh and she's spastic. REALLY SPASTIC. BEWARE!
DAYNA WONG - haha :D this person i also have many many things to say. lovely and loving person :D encourages us although she herself feeling down :D no words can describe her :DD MY BESTIE! how long have we known each other alr? ages :O haha and i <3 her!!! :D
SARAH CHIANG - SARAH RAH RAH!!! how long have we known each other!! WE'VE KNOWN EACH OTHER FOR OUR WHOLE LIVES! DON'T PLAY PLAY OKAY! I KNOW HER SINCE BABY LEH! :D (cos our dads close to each other) and haha we're still close to each other!! :D high five man :) she's totally random. very horny too. aiyoh, i still rmb how she cursed kanye west :} i shall not say what she said haha but oh i think she herself knows very well what she said! hahaha :D
JEROLYN - quiet quiet person i've known since zone 1B times! :D hahaha very good friend and encourager too :) nice and sweet she is hahahahah. and she also laughs alot :) hahah :D
YILIN - MY DA JIE!!!!! <3 hahaaha.. my 'da jie' and very very very very very good friend!! :D knows everything about my secrets (sshh!) and she will keep secrets! ahha very good person to tell secret to HAHAH just kidding :D and she's a very thoughtful person :) always smiling and happy happy :D haahha :)
WENTING - hahaha! this person ah, hahah :D always so cheerful and bubbly. always laughing. and encouraging us! :D hahaha :) thanks man!
SHUFANG - haha! winter love! :) she's in love, madly in love :D shufang, cheer up okay? :D and this jie jie always cheers me up and encourages me :D yet again, thanks alot of everything you have done, shufang! like helping me get back my appetite :D and many many other things. i feel so blessed to have many good friends :D

MY BLOG IS RESTORED!! :D

dunno what's wrong with blogger.. first, say my blog spam blog. then i try restore, and it restored!! *CHEERS*
haha and anw got so many things to blog about! one week like my blog closed. haha :D
so firstly, on last friday, have cell outing!! *three cheers for cell outing! hiphiphooray! hiphiphooray! hiphiphooray!* and then went just acia at dhoby ghuad mrt (did i spell correct? O.O) royston, yang, my bro, me, jero, ly, and lauren came. hahah and then we ate and ate and ate. until i very full :D but satisfying :D (actually i wanted to vomit lol, but thank god i didn't) and after we ate, thought still abit early (around 9 plus), so decided to go plaza sing awhile. in the end, ended up at some arcade O.O and then lauren and ly played silent hill. LOL you guys die so fast liao hahha. then played some games. haha we car-raced against each other and i always ended up the 2nd last (i think). and OMG, we CAMWHORED!! :DD lol, at first wanted to take neoprints, but we decided to use another CHEAPER alternative :} haha and one of the pics taken that day is my fav one, and nicest one i find so far that day. oh and we did many shots (it seemed like many to me, some were an utter failure), some were spastic shots (OOH I LIKE!), some were happy, sad, or bu shuang shots (LOL). all the shots were really funny ahah. i lazy upload pics, so just go facebook see lah.
and yang's going to india with pastor aaron for mission trip tmr! i will pray for them!! :D JYJY YANGCHENG!! :D
oh and i'm doing praise and worship on friday. decided to do same songs with dayna! :DDD WOOHOO i'm very very high today, cos i see him so many times in sch :D heheheh.
and i was just browsing around facebook ytd, and muse had a post on new moon. so i went to the link, and here is what i found! THE NEW MOON 2ND TRAILER! got dakota fanning (royston!), the volturi, and other stuff which you dun see on the first trailer :D actually royston was telling me about the 2nd trailer on friday, and i found it! *proud* here is the link : http://www.mtv.co.uk/film/twilight
yah and tmr have science test, thurs have chinese ke nei test and history essay test :( talking about essays, i haven't do lit essay yet! CRIES.
looking forward to when exams end. then HERE COME HOLIDAYS, and in december, HERE COME HOKKAIDO!! :DDD

i'm sad :'(

i'm kinda sad today. cos, firstly i failed my 2.4 again, worst than last time LOL. nvm lah :)
but, what happened aft sch made me feel bad and even worse. i didn't notice he was there, at the last part. hmm, somemore i critisised. i think he understands.
oh and study date with dayna and lauren was great! LOL and we were sitting outside, and some 3 other girls inside keep knocking the window at us. we were like thinking : wth, who are you guys man.
hahah.. anw no offence though, to the ppl inside :) and everyone was spastic spastic spastic HAHAHAA :DD
oh and here's a pic of sungmin. i think this was taken around SuJu Happy that time bah hahah :D so cute ~


ALL YOUR PROMISES WON'T LET GO OF ME!

HAPPEEEEE!

i damn happy today!! cos i get to see him again LOL. but that felicia ah ~ but i managed to escape from her this time :D *proud*
but because of what i dreamt ytd night, my mood was low, and i was really frightened. but i'm still happy after all haha. so glad i went home early today. cos i get to see him LOL! but only from a damn distance :(

oh and i found this really cute pic of MY sungmin! :DDD <3 and mnoreover, he's eating the KOREAN CORN i love SOOOOOO much!!! :DDDDDD i miss that korean corn :( but seeing him eat liddat, makes me feel so happy haha. add more to my happiness

bird?!!

sat basically slacked the whole day.
sunday (today), met for lunch then went church do usher. lol it's been so long since i do usher lor lol. feel weird weird de hahahaha. then i told ron about him. LOL he said he look like bird. wth!! where for look like bird?! LOL. and lauren somehow inhaled "laughing gas" and went all crazy today. LOL.
i just realised the hokkaido and shanghai trip clashed with church family camp. so aww, can't go. oh my holiday is from 12 dec to 21 or 22 dec :) hehehe soo happy :D but first gotta get winter clothes AGAIN! :(

study! :)

went to study with jero at singpost today, lol but we gave up studying for an hour or so LOL. so we went to slack around, and then walk to aljunied mrt meet dayna and dana for dinner. then we went cell. haha played twister but then my toe halfway got the muscle pain. actually it's more of the bone fault i think. but i dunno :S LOL. okay i'm making no sense at all. and so lauren found an old guy cute. HAHAHAHHA!! LOL. and i feel that i'm missing......... :)

bing bing bing!!! 빙빙빙!!!

hey ppl! :Di'm sooo addicted to this song called bing bing bing by ft island :) and i decided to have one song per week, and one rap per week for my blog. so this is my song and rap for the week :
song - bing bing bing by ft island (OMG I'M SRSLY IN LOVE WITH THIS SONG!):

and then the rap for the week is LONER by OUTSIDER! :D *applauds* outsider srsly rocks!! :D and if you go to 1:51 i8n this video, he'll be going at a very fast rate. as in super fast. watch and listen yourself :) he is really really good. outsider rocks! i wanna be like outsider :D this is da rap! :

and i just realised that many ppl see him when'he's in my home area and i'm in his home area -.- LOL. and i don't see him at all. what is this? but when sch open i shall and i will see him again :}
oh yah and this is K.Will trying to rap to outsider's loner LOL :) but k.will did great yea! haha :D here you will see both outsider and k.will :

vote! ; zoo! :)

pls vote here for what concert you want to take place in singapore! i chose super junior (obviously lah) :
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yeah and anw then today is family day!! woots :D went to zoo. but i didnt sit with cell, i sat with family friends and family. and also went to explore zoo with them. (sorry cell nvr go with ya guys!) took damn alot of pics. (of the animals) wah go there managed to get some seats. sermon was...well.. anw then left halfway watch the seal show. oh btw my bro sat with cell. then went to eat lunch, then explore explore walk walk. then we found out that we actually went round the entire zoo! OMG. LOL! :) so yea but the only place we didn't go is the kids part LOL :) anw was really nice and good and i enjoyed myself. resting my feet now haha..

thanksgiving performance

thanksgiving performance today was okay lah haha but i think i sucked much. nvm :) then everyone went really high. high until... sigh. nvm i shall not talk abt it. it just makes me feel so ashamed of myself. but i really enjoyed tonight very much :) and the carnival super hot cans!

HAPPY BDAY SARAH CHIANG!! :D

hey hey! today is my forever bestie birthday! i already sent her an sms ytd at 12 am lol i'm gonna spam her facebook now :) and omg this is the 14th year i know her liaao leh! like, anw we will know each other forever lah :D haha.. sarah chiang, stay happy always yeah? YOU'RE ALWAYS THE SEXIEST WOMAN ALIVE! :} haha
and i woke up, still feeling happy but also pissed. haha

happy and pissed

i am soooo happy today!! :D cos of what happened in the afternoon :D I AM SO ELATED AND HAPPY!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
but then come evening, i am super pissed. i don't want to talk about it. but i feel there's no need to be biased right? haiz.. it's abt thanksgiving rehearsel the thing. always get feddup.
oh and tmr is thanksgiving. choir is performing! :) hopefully the MICS can spread out sound so that everyone can hear us.
and then sunday is family day! zoo! :)

HAPPY BDAY CLARA TAN! :D

first things first... HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLARA TAN! stay happy always and god bless! my my you're 16 already! :) sweet 16 yeah? haha :D
AND AND OMG ytd can practically be the happiest day of my life in year 2009!!! :DDDD hahaha.. i shall not say what things happened, but alot of hilarious things happened ytd. in which i keep blushing to. smth to do with him LOL :) like i said, hilarious.
haha.. tmr got rehearsel for thanksgiving.

stomach flu

FINALLY BLOGGER IS WORKING! :D can upload pic liaos! hehe.. but i also no pic to upload.. lols.
haiyah.. sick again sia! i swear, the amount of medicine i can eat every year is uncountable! WTF. i wish this sickness thing can freaking go away! i got stomach flu. damn. first day (which was monday, so i didn't go sch on monday) i vomited super ALOT! i vomited 5 times! omg. then diarrhea 3 times -.- wah the shit ah, like water liddat lor. but today my stomach better alr. haha.. but still don't feel like going sch tmr, cos still don't feel very well. then if i don't go, cannot see him alr. so many day nvr see! and if i go, tmr pe, but i cannot run mah. then ltr ms cheng don't believe me, cos got no mc. heck care, tmr i go doc take mc :) my stomach still not very good yet. i always scare i vomit out stuff again.

haircut :)

ytd went for haircut at hair journal. now like my hair, not so thick, but after i washed my hair today, the chemical all come out, and then my hair become frizzy again -.- but the haircut is good, then da jie who cut for me also good :) then after come back home, then my doorbell ring. in the end is dayna and sarah. LOL! then sit around with them. then went to cell tgt, but they went to cheers to buy stuffs. so me and my bro go cell. and on da way there i bought ft island ex link sticker :) but ít's the one with wonbin, old one. so no seunghyun :(
then today, afternoon went to parkway with cousin, bro and dad. shop shop around, bought new sch shoes, and gifts for my tuition teachers. then met up with my mum, go family dinner with everyone from my dad side and family friends. eat until super full. then went to uncle's house to celebrate aunty and family friend's bday. then went home. now very FULL and TIRED.

like :)

I'VE DECIDED TO CONTINUE LIKING HIM! :D and of course, MY sungmin and MY seunghyun. sungmin is dating sunny! it's rumoured btw. and donghae dating jessica, and eunhyuk dating his fan. all are rumours lol

falling head over heels

falling head over heels in admiration and teenage crushes again. why must it be? why can't it be another person. pian pian must be him! again, i don't understand why ppl crush. i mean, i don't even know him lor.. it's like, look liao, begin to notice, and then start to like. however, not like previous crushes, i feel strangely warm when i see him. as in my heart feels very warm, there's warmth in me. last time is i get excited and my heart starts beating fast. but this time it's diff. i even dreamt of him 3 days consecutively! something's changed. sungmin didn't even appear in my dreams! OMG. that spells trouble. sigh.. i dunno why.. but yeah, it's different. totally so very different. maybe i'll just see how it goes. whether to stop liking him ornot. how can i stop? how can i stop when i keep seeing you around... i don't even know you. and one thing, i guess he would have known by now, cos it's just so obvious. i still don't get why ppl crush on someone they dunno :S it's silly right? i guess it's part and parcel of growing up. maybe i should just continue? cos i feel the happiness and warmth.

happy bday yesung! <3

HAPPY BDAY TO YESUNG!!!! :DDD i srsly love his vocals! :D jyjy yesung! YESUNG, FIGHTING! :D yesung is the first person i like in super junior :) so he means alot leh! haha.. the first time i saw him on mtv in pajama party mv, i love him! :D here is a vid of yesung to celebrate his birthday! :

youth anni!! ; ft island!

today was youth anni :D haha.. met zu er, qiao er, jerolyn and clara at aljunied mrt. then went to marina bay mrt take shuttle bus to marina barrage. we went there too early LOL! then in the end go tour the visitor centre before going our stall. then the whole day in the sun!! omg my eyes hurt cos of the sun. and got abit sunburnt le. whole day we never sit down, abit only haha.. leg very pain. before this pain liao, now walao even more pain. BUT IT'S ALL WORTH IT!! COS WE'RE DOING IT FOR GOD AND YOUTH ALIVE!! woots! and then like, earned quite alot haha.. but very thirsty. then watched the dance performance by fission X. was UBER GOOD! good job dancers! haha. although i have my criticises, but i don't think it's good to point them out here. ltr ppl get offend, i die :X LOL! yeah and then after that left and went back to aljunied eat with zu er, qiao er and jerolyn. eat until very full haha. enjoyed ourselves :) oh yeah and at the coffee shop, saw yingying and her church ppl. haha so talk to her awhile then we eat and left :D enjoyed myself, though now i walk very pain haha :D

AND I'M IN LOVE WITH FT ISLAND!! I REPEAT, I'M IN LOVE WITH FT ISLAND!!! :DDDD i find their songs SUPER NICE! all thanks to dana who told me :) before she tell me i know ft island very good, but nvr really listen to them haha.. now that i do listen to them, they are SUPER!! :D but i know that super junior is always in my heart :D this is my fav ft island song. it's called i hope. i first listened to it on pops in seoul haha.. thanks to VJ Isak!! :D this is i hope by ft island! :

HAPPY BDAY KIM KIBUM! <3

okay... so.. HAPPY BDAY KIM KIBUM! I <3 you forever! :D anw, he's not kimbum kay.. he is kibum! super junior's kibum! and when he smiles.. the whole world simply stops :D so happy bday! <3 :D 3 more days to yesung bday! woot! anw, since blogger can't upload pics, i upload VIDEO! this is for kibum! :

anw.. pft 5 stations today.. again failed the same stations which are standing broad jump and shuttle run.. and i'm like eating banana and ice cream for lunch now :S i keep forgetting to buy blue file for dnt.. gonna hand it up on monday..
anw.. my leg now very pain.. dunno how sia tmr youth anni.. and ltr meeting cell at 5!!!! for decorations!! faints.. so early.

i srsly love Why I Like You 니가 좋은 이유 by super junior :D i srsly srsly LOVE it! it sometimes make me cry. this is my <3 song apart from it's you 너라고. here is the piano version :

S2!

omg... ms ho switched me to SOPRANO 2 ytd!! faints.. i very not used to high notes.. i think when ms loh come back the system will change again. walao keep changing... but nvm, i got gillian (sec 1) and sin joo and xinying and ppl there! :) oh and happy birthday, qiu qin!

and then here comes it.... PFT!! was totally shag today.. tdy ran 2.4! omg i FAILED again.. just by 1 bloody stupid single minute. tmr got 5 stations. actually i see no use passing pft. even if i pass 2.4, my standing broad jump make me fail. but i'll just try to pass that 1 min when got retest bah.. and then today some ppl ambush us (me wenting liangyue) in the toiliet! ask us if can interview us regarding MJ (michael jackson). then we were like, erm don't want. but they force. so i gave in. wah then so paiseh, the videocam at my face!
cries :'( i hope they don't show me! don't show me! don't show me! show me, i KEEL you! (LOL)

OMG OMG youth anni is coming very very super soon!!! *hurray!* hahaahhahahahahahaahaha!! hope that we all will have fun at marina barrage! (i still don't get why they must hold it at that place sia) and let's be good stall holders! PL2, FIGHTING!

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this is the song that says my feelings for.... :)
this is by SUPER JUNIOR!!! *all cheers and screams*
너라고 neorago (it's you)

너라고 (너라고) 너라고 (너라고)
난 너뿐이라고 (너라고) 너라고 (너라고)

다른 사람 필요 없어 난 그냥 너라고
다시 한번 물어봐도 난 그냥 너라고
이미 너는 다른 사랑 했겠지만 (너라고)
놓칠 수가 없어 다시 돌이킬 수 없어 (너라고)

내 눈빛이 뜨거웠던 순간에 (너라고)
가슴 깊이 못을 박던 순간에 (너라고)
미련없이 바로 너를 선택했어 (너라고)
그래 난 너라고 oh! 난

그 누가 누가 뭐래도 나는 상관 없다고
그 누가 누가 욕해도 너만 바라본다고
나 다시 태어난 대도 오직 너 뿐이라고
째깍째깍 시간이 흘러도 oh! 난

널 사랑한다 말해도 천 번 만 번 말해도
내 가슴 속 다 불 타고 마른 입술 닳도록
나 다시 태어난 대도 오직 너 뿐이라고
째깍째깍 시간이 흘러도 oh! 난

oh oh only for you oh oh only for you
oh oh only for you oh oh only for you
oh oh only for you oh oh only for you
oh oh only for you 너라고

아무 말도 필요없어 난 그냥 너라고 (너라고)
너무 늦었다고 해도 난 그냥 너라고 (너라고)

잘못된 사랑인 걸 알고 있지만 (너라고)
포기 할 수 없어 절대 놓칠 수는 없어 아아 (너라고)

차디찬 내 입술을 더 부르네 (너라고)
뜨거웁게 너를 찾아 외치네 (너라고)

불러봐도 대답없는 너이지만 (너라고)
널 기다린다고 oh! 난

그 누가 누가 뭐래도 나는 상관 없다고
그 누가 누가 욕해도 너만 바라본다고
나 다시 태어난 대도 오직 너 뿐이라고
째깍째깍 시간이 흘러도 oh! 난

널 사랑한다 말해도 천 번 만 번 말해도
내 가슴 속 다 불 타고 마른 입술 닳도록
나 다시 태어난 대도 오직 너 뿐이라고
째깍째깍 시간이 흘러도 oh! 난

oh oh only for you oh oh only for you
난 너라고 너라고 나는 (왜 모르니 왜 모르니)
난 너라고 너라고
나는 나

그 누가누가 뭐래도 나는 상관없다고 (난 상관 없다고)
그 누가누가 욕해도 너만 바라본다고 (널 바라 봐 hey)
나 다시 태어난 대도 오직 너 뿐이라고
째깍째깍 시간이 흘러도 oh! 난

널 사랑한다 말해도 천번 만번 말해도
내 가슴 속 다 불 타고 마른 입술 닳도록
나 다시 태어난 대도 오직 너 뿐이라고
째깍째깍 시간이 흘러도 oh! 난

너라고 (너라고) 너라고 (너라고)
난 너뿐이라고 (너라고) 너라고

It’s you
It’s you
It’s you
It’s only you
It’s you
It’s you

I don’t need anyone else, it’s only you
When you ask again, it’s only you
Even if you already have another love
I can’t forget you, I can’t turn back around
Oh ~
The moment my eyes began to burn
The moment my heart was captured by you
I have no regret, I chose you
That’s right, it’s you

Chorus :
Oh whatever anyone anyone says, it doesn’t matter to me
Oh whoever whoever curses me, I’ll only look at you
Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you
(Still Still) Even as time goes by

Oh when you tell me you love me
When you tell me thousands and millions of times
Even when my heart sets on fire, my dry lips wear out
Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you
(Still Still) Even as time goes by

Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you

It’s you
I don’t need any words. it’s just you
" It’s too late " , but for me it’s just you
I know our love is wrong
I can’t give up, I can’t let you go
Ah Ah

My lips, cold as can be, are even more blue
I cry out to find to find your warmth
I call, even though I call for you
And there’s no reply, I’ll wait for you

Chorus :
Oh whatever anyone anyone says, it doesn’t matter to me
Oh whoever whoever curses me, I’ll only look at you
Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you
(Still Still) Even as time goes by

Oh when you tell me you love me
When you tell me thousands and millions of times
Even when my heart sets on fire, my dry lips wear out
Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you
(Still Still) Even as time goes by

Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you
For me, it’s you, it’s you
Why don’t you know, why don’t you know?
For me, it’s you, it’s you

Oh whatever anyone anyone says, it doesn’t matter to me
Oh whoever whoever curses me, I’ll only look at you
Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you
(Still Still) Even as time goes by

Oh when you tell me you love me
When you tell me thousands and millions of times
Even when my heart sets on fire, my dry lips wear out
Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you
(Still Still) Even as time goes by

cremation

i just went to the cremation today. morning. woke up at 6 plus, then faster get prepared for the cremation. got to the wake at about 7 plus. then waited for everyone to come. then went to the catholic church for service. then headed to mandai crematorium. i was just crying, crying crying. i guess it's just a natural human process. i feel so sad. but then i know she wants us to be happy. and i'm going to be happy! i must be happy! then after that headed back to eat. then went home.
ytd night at the wake, went to fitness corner to exercise. now arm pain cos i train my arm abit. but my leg, strangely not pain :S then i saw at the wake someone who looked like the waiter from orchard hotel during thanksgiving dinner. lols. until now i still dunno if that person is the waiter ornot. cos srsly look very alike.
and saturday was our thanksgiving dinner performance! i came to sch just in time. i thought i was going to be super late! then the bus would leave without me :P lol. and then during our performace i screwed up the dance.i was like doing three actions at the same time! :O omg.but then the dinner was GOOD :) and went around with shufang talking to some teachers. haha they all look so pretty (for the female teachers) cos they specially dressed up for this haha..anw enjoyed myself and went really high. oh i changed tables to shufang's table :D then our whole table were arm link arm, and were swaying together. then the waiter (the one i think i saw a the wake) coming to clear our plates. then he stare at us, then he go off. and when he came back, mavis asked him : why you go off just now? then his reply was super funny. it was like : cos you all there..... and then we all LOL:D is only 17 sia! i thought he is 20 or something (we know he is 17 cos this shufang go and ask LOLLOL!). the pics are on facebook. see those ppl who upload, cos i myself didn't take much pics.except for my orange juice and one with yilin.

wake

thursday, a day of tears. i could not help it.. but only on friday during sch then i broke down. thurs i teared.. i know she don't want us to be mourning, but it's natural. i think only time will heal this. now there's only 9 of us. my bro said something abt reproduction. maybe ten years down the road. anw, i hope that everyone will still remember her in our hearts. i am very sorry i was not there for her when she needed support the most. only on the last day. i'm glad she's in a better place now, with god.. i miss you. thank you for everything you had done for us and the family all these years. thank you for your love and care you have showered upon us all this years. love you.
and i went to the wake on thurs, and ytd (fri). i can't go today cos of the performance.

life is precious

life is precious. i am going to cry. very soon. i dunno when it's gonna happen, i pray hard that it won't happen. but if it's god's will, then i have nth to say. it's been hard. esp for my lil' cousin. been thru so much yet so strong. i hope that a miracle will happen. though it may not. but i know that she'll be going to somewhere better than this earth. i just hate to think of that thought. i didn't treasure life before. i just wished that it won't happen. it won't... now then i know how to treasure life. even hearing it makes me tear. god pls save.

anw, i saw him again!

:O

tdy i almost slept in science again. seems like that time of the day i always very sleepy. but science damn inetersting lor!! i can't believe it -.-

i feel so alone. lonely. like no one there. i know god is. and there's a bunch of great great bffs :) and friends :D but i still can't help feeling left out.. in class and sch esp... cries.

happy belated bday sg

HAPPY BELATED BDAY SG! i'm sooo 1 day late -.- hahaha.. anw went church ytd, and sarah came! :D finally, someone is church likes suju songs :) hahah i was waiting for this moment :DDDD
haha anw i'm just like watching suju's exploration of the human body :) super funny :)

outing with sarah :D

YAY!! haha.. went on an outing with known-since-birth SARAH CHIANG!! :D hhahah.. i LOVE going out with her. she super cute! haha.. cute = funny :) went to orchard, then we were looking for far east plaza to look for my korean clothings. then found our way there, but could not find the shops !_! wasted sia.. but bought 2 bangles :D one white, one baby pink!! one for one somemore! $4! haha.. cheap, cheap :) next time i know, come far east plaza le. anw, then FOUND OUR WAY to wisma (if i spelt that correct), then went to look at forvever 21. then she got a ring she uver LOVES. then went to kallang mrt, then we dunno how to take bus to kallang leisure. HAAHAHA!! in the end got to call dayna and ask where to take, how to get back HAHAHA!! super funny :) thanks dayna :D and then went there, then go subway eat. very yummy. went to the korean shop and bought a pen :D FINALLY, i bought something made in korea! then go to find a place to cam-whore. in the end find nowhere to cam-whore, so just took a few pics here and there, then go yoguru (I LOVE IT!) and i ate MY frozen yoghurt :DDDD i wish can have some zhen zhu nai cha. but my throat la!! and went to wait for bus 11. take sooo long! finally came, and then take back mrt to aljunied, and went library hahaha.. went there, cam-whored abit but i was not co-operative cos i tired le. and then read some seventeen magazines while waiting for her dad to come. then i went home :) haha.. now very tired, but worth it :D haha.. really want to go out with sarah chiang again! :D

anw ytd was sch celebration of ndp. very suck, cos i couldn't sing. doc said : absolutely no singing :( so i didn't sing! and the sch dun even know, say what thing we not enthu, nvr sing. I CAN'T SING, GETTID??!! :D didn't go prayer meeting cos of my throat.

must fast fast get well!! or else cannot go practice or performance!! JYJY myself! :D

going to church tmr :)

SUNGMIN! <3

this post is for sungmin! i was just thinking... abt sungmin :D haha.. how he started with suju, and etc etc :D haha.. this vid is MY SUNGMIN! :D and this song is by sungmin, lina and dana of girls generation (i think). lol. anw, here is the vid + song =



and this is another vid of cute sungmin! =


and another one of sungmin cam-whoring =


hee.. and i find this is the most cutest vid! this is of sungmin eating. =


hees... last vid! =

another round!

SIGH... BIG BIG BIG BIG SIGH! :( got another round of medication. since my throat got wrose 0.o aiyah, what i can do is : sigh.

anw, long time nvr use comp liaos! 3days.. cos dunno why suddenly the wireless mouse cannot work. then wah.. die.. in the end is found out is the battery prob -.-

anw, suju FIGHTING! lol random :D

oh and and and wed ran 2.4 again :) and i improved by 1 min! ALL THANKS to DANA for pushing me :D if not for her, i think i would have gotten worse :) thanks dana! :DD

SUJU SORRY SORRY ALBUM!

finally bought suju's sorry sorry album :DDDD congratulate me!! :DD i feel so good after having a missiona dn wish accomplished :D hahah.. anw went out with yilin and wenting today. lols we went suntec. after going cinema, then go find place to eat. almost went over to marina, then i rmb got food court. lol cheap and good! i ate ban mian. the ban mian so hard de lo! haha.. then we go the cinema there see harry potter :D until now i still confused about the ending! O.o haha.. but enjoyed myself after all :) but need to drink lotsa water in case my sore throat come back again haha.. thanks yilin and wenting! happy bday in advance wenting! :D

TMR GOT SCH AGAIN. SIANZZZ. but got choir :D

church :D

went morning service tdy. cos combined. haha.. then omg youth anni coming so fast! i think need to shop for pirate / sailor clothe le lor. haha.. now stoning at lit essay. i wrote my first line. now i dunno how le :S

the WHOLE week of sch D: i am sick again!

D: D: D: - my exact emotions in sch. this week bloody suay suay. sigh.
oh i am sick again. throat very pain, very bad, now have to take two very very big pills every 3 or 2 times a day :(

monday - hsitory test :) i studied somemore :D hahah..

tuesday - can't rmb what happened.

wednesday - physical torture day D: RUN 6 ROUNS 2.4!!! :( then my leg so bloody painful. and i did a stupid thing. i breathe thru my mouth. then no saliva inside. LOL. and i ran like 21 min lor. FAIL le :( aiya my pft every year sure fail de la even if i pass 2.4 also fail, cos of standing broad jump.

thurs - worst day of the week. throat bloody pain. and when i woke up, going off for sch, my dad come and tell me that my spec the leg broke. whole thing. WTF. then i go around sch blur blur the whole day, and during lesson i wear my pri sch spec, and one side blur one side clear. WTH. then geog test i studied abit :D ahhaha.. and at night went to make new specs and repair my specs. and my dad tell me can try contacts :D finally! :D haha..

friday - fell sick today. throat damn pain. so aft tuition went to see doc. doc prescribed me some medicine. again take medicine. i never broke my record before (RECORD OF FALLING SICK EVERY MONTH). i wish i can only like sick when i want to be. or rarely sick. cos today is FOP! wth.. so i cannot go fop D: don't wish to spread to my zone :D haha.. i hope you all are reading THIS! see how kind i am ;D hahahah.. kidding kidding :}

maybe either tmr or sunday i going with mama to watch combined works of shakespear. haven't even bought tickets yet lo LOL. cos need to see how my condition. THROAT SUPER PAIN!

THIS IS FOR MY COUSIN, my only LEONG cousin, JYJY, never give up, never stop hoping okay? you are the smart smart smart cousin i know, and don't ever give up spirit. no matter what happens, we are family and we are always here for you!! don't feel upset by anything no matter how bad is the situation, no matter how strong the storm in life is yeah. press on, never give up hope! :D *always here for you, cousin* :D

btw, i listen to it's you song by suju the piano version, and i find this SUPER NICE la!! here it is :



and this is the mv version. same song :D :



and of course, the dance version :