Tonight

Today we went KBox! :D All of us Family Friends haha :D

WOOTS damn fun! Screamed alot, but my voice wasn't hurt, and I really thank God for that haha :D

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Well, I dreamt of you twice in the same week.

1st dream :

I dreamt that I went out with my friend. We entered a fast food restaurant and saw you there. Then you just walked past me. I msged you. Then I told my friend that it was you. She : "Oh so that's him ah.." Me : "Yeah.." Then, suddenly we were at the carpark near my old house. You with your friends, and me with my friends. Then I saw you, and you saw me. Then you left your friends and walked towards me. My friend told me she gotta go and told me to enjoy myself. Then she somehow disappeared (that was kinda weird lol). And you were beside me. And then somehow it suddenly became nighttime. It was dark, and we were walking to my old house for our class bbq. You were tagging along with us, and you were walking beside me. Somehow, everyone walked by the main road except the two of us. We went by under the mrt track. Then I told you it was very dark and I was scared. And suddenly, you hugged me from behind, and told me that you are here, don't worry.

2nd dream :

I dreamt that we were in school. SYF Practice just ended, and your CCA just ended too. You came to pick me up from CCA. When I started talking about my guy friends, you got jealous about it and told me to stop talking about them. You were like : "So what man." Me : "Lol.." Then, as we were walking out of school, you walked home with me. You were sending me home. And we were on the verge of getting together.

Well, after all, it was only just a dream. But I felt so comforted by these two dreams. Idk if it's phsycological thingy or what, but I didn't dream of you for a very long time ever since it happened. Until last week. I dreamt of you twice in a week. I felt so comforted in those two dreams, I felt so loved by you, a feeling that's so... Just no words can explain it. You are the best thing that's ever been mine, that kind of feeling. If only it was real. But I know it's not. And it won't be. You only love me as a friend. And that's better than nothing, so yeah. But those two dreams are just like, woah, damn, I love you.

I should be over you. I should stop wallowing in self-pity and focus on my studies now.

I have a great, graceful, awesome and amazing God whom I know loves me and will always love me, and I worship him for he is the greatest God and no words can describe him for his love is just simply amazing and I love him, I love Jesus Christ, my one and only saviour. I have this amazing family who will stand with me and stand by me through thick and thin. I have these awesome friends who would never fail to make my life brighter and happier. I have Choir that always cheer me up, because when I sing, I'm happy. More than happy in fact. I feel great when I sing! And I shouldn't be like this because I keep dwelling on you.

I'm going to end these feelings I have for you.

I will and I shall.

I will only love you as a friend, nothing more.

Friend, good friend, great friend, best friend, I love you, as a friend.


I'm gonna stop wallowing in self-pity.