The Story Of Us

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I should have just shut my damn mouth up. I'm not gonna say anything that's bad from now on.
It's not like as if I wanted it right?
First, you tell me to have confidence in myself, then you give the disappointed face.
Well, I'm sorry to disappoint you but you didn't have to mention the three letters I hate the most right.
And I very well did NOT wanted it to happen either.
Okay fine I shall work hard from now on. I will and prove that I can do it.

From now on, whatever zooweemama there is in this world, I'm not gonna care. It's a such a screwed up place I wish I can faster just leave this place and society. I've been caring too much about things I shouldn't care about in the first place. I guess I'm not gonna care cos it doesn't concern me. I'm doing everything I can to make myself improve though there's not much time left.

And why am I worrying so much about you since you don't even care now? Whatever I do, whatever I say, you just give me this feeling like as if I'm worth nothing. Idk wth is going on and what exactly I did wrong to deserve this, but I know that I am definitely not being selfish and have gave alot into this friendship. Fine, I know sometimes I did things that were wrong and Idk if you were pissed with me cos of whatever I did before (like insulting your friend) but I can just say it's killing me inside now.

And if you can't be bothered anymore or don't have the time, just tell me. Don't just keep silent there and not say anything. Just let me know, at least I won't be hurting so much inside and wondering when are you ever gonna be the person I knew last year. You don't know how much it's killing me.

My heart has been yearning "Pls, just talk to me!!!! Just freaking talk to me!!! I don't care what you say, JUST FRIGGIN TALK PLS." We used to be so close, like brother and sister. We could talk about anything under the sky. Until that day came. And ruined everyday. I guess I'm just a sucker for you. I don't think you put me in your eyes anymore. You don't even smile at me in school like you did last time. And you used to say hi and give me that silly smile of yours. That childish and boyish smile. Now, your face doesn't even have an expression. Idk what's going on with you, maybe smth happened, maybe you have new friends, maybe you think I'm a bitch and whatever whatever. Idk what, but I can safely say that the impression you gave me was like shit. You don't even put effort in our friendship. What MORE can I say? Sigh. It seems like our friendship's gone, over. Wu Yao ke jiu. I hope you feel the same way as I do. Just FRIGGIN talk alright?! But there's no point. You're never gonna see this since you always forget a lot of stuff, and my blog address one of them. You're never gonna know how I feel. You're outta my life. I guess that ignorance is your new best friend.

This always happens. Whenever I have a guy best friend, they just stop talking one day and leave my life. First it was R. Then, L. Now, you. Idk why, but I had a feeling this would happen. And it really did. And maybe I'm just meant to be friends with girls only since I can't flirt like SOME people so yeah. Tell me, what should I do? I know that friends come and go. But I can't let you go. I can't repeat the same mistakes I did in previous friendships. I need to talk to you badly. It's just that.. Pride's holding me back, and I feel you should be the one putting in effort into our friendship if you really want to save this. I did my part, now it's your turn. Okay maybe I'll just talk to you one day to ask how life's been -.- Maybe.

And I hope you are better off without me. I hope you won't get pissed or whatever anymore.
I am giving up on you. Idk if I still love you or am used to the pain or over you alr, but one thing I know for sure is that our last chance is blown. Totally blown. Goodbye.



I used to think one day we'd tell the story of us
How we met and the sparks flew instantly
People would say, "they're the lucky ones"
I used to know my place was a spot next to you
Now I'm searching the room for an empty seat
'Cause lately I don't even know what page you're on
Oh, a simple complication
Miscommunications lead to fall out
So many things that I wish you knew
So many walls up I can't break through

Now I'm standing alone
In a crowded room
And we're not speaking
And I'm dying to know
Is it killing you
Like it's killing me?
I don't know what to say
Since a twist of fate
When it all broke down
And the story of us
Looks a lot like a tragedy now
Next chapter

How'd we end up this way?
See me nervously pulling at my clothes
And trying to look busy
And you're doing your best to avoid me
I'm starting to think one day I'll tell the story of us
How I was losing my mind when I saw you here
But you held your pride like you should have held me
Oh, we're scared to see the ending
Why are we pretending this is nothing?
I'd tell you I miss you but I don't know how
I've never heard silence quite this loud

Now I'm standing alone
In a crowded room
And we're not speaking
And I'm dying to know
Is it killing you
Like it's killing me?
I don't know what to say
Since a twist of fate
When it all broke down
And the story of us
Looks a lot like a tragedy now

This is looking like a contest
Of who can act like they care less
But I liked it better when you were on my side
The battle's in your hands now
But I would lay my armor down
If you'd say you'd rather love than fight
So many things that you wish I knew
But the story of us might be ending soon

Now I'm standing alone
In a crowded room
And we're not speaking
And I'm dying to know
Is it killing you
Like it's killing me?
I don't know what to say
Since a twist of fate
When it all broke down
And the story of us
Looks a lot like a tragedy now, now, now
And we're not speaking
And I'm dying to know
Is it killing you
Like it's killing me?
I don't know what to say
Since a twist of fate
'cause we're going down
And the story of us
Looks a lot like a tragedy now

Summer Song

This song totally describes how I'm feeling right now. FTSK FOR THE WIN!! :D
Okay maybe it's not EXACTLY how I feel but most of the lyrics are how I'm feeling now.
I wanna score for Os, but here I am, checking out youtube vids and facebooking. I should be doing my TYS now -.- Damn.
On the plus side, I've started doing my Physics TYS a few days ago, and things suddenly became all very clear heh heh :D
And today's EMaths mock exam Paper 1 was like shit. Very difficult, and heard from Pamela that it's near to O lvl standard. Holy zooweemama!!!!!!!! :(
And yes I changed my blogskin (by Eunice's request) but it's still rather large. Sorry Eunice! :X

And I made up my mind to tell him after Os. Yes I've not gone crazy or whatever. I just thought he should know. And since we might not be seeing each other again, why not. I mean, no matter how awkward it gets, and if I get badly blown by it, at least it won't affect me whilst preparing for Os. So yeah, straightaway right after Os Imma tell him.



I can tell you I'm ready,
But I'm not
I can say that I care,
But it's not enough
This summer's a one to remember,
And I won't forget
Followed you to the west coast,
Take my hand and I won't let go
This summer's a one to remember,
So what are you waiting for?

This is the night, 
We came alive
Into the summer time state of mind,
Fight for the finish line
We'll be running til the sun comes up,
Goodbye to giving up
(Hey, Hey)
This is our summer song
(Hey, Hey)

City lights up the 101
One on one tonight
Your body language speaks to me,
Yeah, I'm hearing everything I need
Calm down to a moonlit midnight,
Kiss your lips, girl, will go all night
This summer's a one to remember
So what are you waiting for?

This is the night, 
We came alive,
Into the summer time state of mind,
Fight for the finish line
We'll be running til the sun comes up,
Goodbye to giving up
This is our night, 
This is our time,
This is our last chance, 
All out fight for the finish line
We'll be running til the sun comes up,
Goodbye to giving up

I don't want this to fade away,
As easy as it came
I don't want this track to ever change,
Cause this is our summer song

This is the night, 
We came alive
Into the summer time state of mind,
Fight for the finish line
We'll be running til the sun comes up,
Goodbye to giving up
This is our night, 
This is our time,
This is our last chance, 
All out fight for the finish line
We'll be running til the sun comes up
We'll be running!!
(Hey, Hey)
This is our summer song
(Hey, Hey)
This is our summer song

The Flood

Turn the lights out, in the light house,
I saw you coming,
Felt the ship wreck
Saw the wreckage, I heard you yelling,
Just a mess when I saw your reflection in the sand,
Wondering where you were washed up,
Or I ran to the water, Mmmmm,
I can put my hands down in it,
But I won’t bring nothing up,
Sitting at the shore all day, waiting on the tide to come

But you can’t hold on to water,
It fills you up but never stays,
It’s only good to wash away,
Today and your loving me like water,
You’re slipping through my fingers touch,
Natural disaster love, bringing on the flood,
of love,
Love me like a flood, the flood,
Bring it on

Stay the night out, by the beach house,
It’s oh so quiet,
Lit a candle,
By the window, so you might find it,
Hope you know you’ll always have a place to call your home,
Still I can’t help but think I could have saved you from drowning,
Ohhh, oh,
I can put my hands down in it, yeah,
But I won’t bring nothing up.

Sitting on the shore all day
Just waiting on the tide to come,

But you can’t hold on to water,
It fills you up but never stays,
It’s only good to wash away,
Today and your loving me like water,
You’re slipping through my fingers touch,
Natural disaster love, bringing on the flood,
The flood,
Love me like a flood, the flood,
Bring it on,

I knew the waves were icy, when I felt them all retreating,
Went to take a dive in the deep end,
Oh, what was I thinking?

But you can’t hold on to water,
It fills you up but never stays,
It’s only good to wash away,
Today and your loving me like water,
You’re slipping through my fingers touch,
Natural disaster love, bringing on the flood,
of love,
Love me like a flood, the flood,
Bring it on,
Ohohohoh Ohohohoh
Rising and falling in my dreams,
Rising and the falling of my tears that fill the ocean, (the ocean, the ocean)

Swagger Jagger ; Oral

Cher Lloyd.. Okay I cannot express in words how I feel about this song and vid. Yeah I know the song's been stuck in my head for days -.- But I've got some feelings about it..
Yes, the song's catchy. But she looks like some clown in the vid.. No offence but yeah. Where's the Cher Lloyd in X-Factor last year?! She's gone. The Cher Lloyd who was supposed to be a mini version of Cheryl Cole!!! Zooweemama. Well, I think that she's still her, and it's the record company that screwed her. The dislikes for all her trailers for this song, the official lyrics vid, and the music vid was like so high. Pls, don't make her into another Rebecca Black. Don't go to that extent until they have to take out the dislike bar! :(

The Cher Lloyd from last year :



This is the real Cher Lloyd who makes Simon speechless!! Not the one who chants : Get on the floor! In one performance, Simon said that her performance was really impressive and incredible, and that she has potential to be a pop star, It takes alot of potential in a singer/performer for Simon to be impressed!

And oral today was just screwed up. I already said the wrong thing in the first sentence when I talk to the examiners. WTH. I hate this. And there was so many things I could've said, I just didn't think of it. Like, FUDGE?! Sigh.. :(
And for once my reading was quite fluent. (Better than my normal reading anyways.)

Well, not point ranting. What's done is done, I know I've done my best, and even if my best wasn't enough, I STILL TRIED. Now I just gotta heave my heavy hard rock ass up and start preparing for Os. Like, NOW!

And my face has this allergies cos of a new facial wash. My whole left side of my face has these rashes/allergies, and my right side only got a bit. My neck also got a bit. I think it'll be okay, cos it's already subsiding, so thank God! :D

Bye!

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