The Story Of Us

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I should have just shut my damn mouth up. I'm not gonna say anything that's bad from now on.
It's not like as if I wanted it right?
First, you tell me to have confidence in myself, then you give the disappointed face.
Well, I'm sorry to disappoint you but you didn't have to mention the three letters I hate the most right.
And I very well did NOT wanted it to happen either.
Okay fine I shall work hard from now on. I will and prove that I can do it.

From now on, whatever zooweemama there is in this world, I'm not gonna care. It's a such a screwed up place I wish I can faster just leave this place and society. I've been caring too much about things I shouldn't care about in the first place. I guess I'm not gonna care cos it doesn't concern me. I'm doing everything I can to make myself improve though there's not much time left.

And why am I worrying so much about you since you don't even care now? Whatever I do, whatever I say, you just give me this feeling like as if I'm worth nothing. Idk wth is going on and what exactly I did wrong to deserve this, but I know that I am definitely not being selfish and have gave alot into this friendship. Fine, I know sometimes I did things that were wrong and Idk if you were pissed with me cos of whatever I did before (like insulting your friend) but I can just say it's killing me inside now.

And if you can't be bothered anymore or don't have the time, just tell me. Don't just keep silent there and not say anything. Just let me know, at least I won't be hurting so much inside and wondering when are you ever gonna be the person I knew last year. You don't know how much it's killing me.

My heart has been yearning "Pls, just talk to me!!!! Just freaking talk to me!!! I don't care what you say, JUST FRIGGIN TALK PLS." We used to be so close, like brother and sister. We could talk about anything under the sky. Until that day came. And ruined everyday. I guess I'm just a sucker for you. I don't think you put me in your eyes anymore. You don't even smile at me in school like you did last time. And you used to say hi and give me that silly smile of yours. That childish and boyish smile. Now, your face doesn't even have an expression. Idk what's going on with you, maybe smth happened, maybe you have new friends, maybe you think I'm a bitch and whatever whatever. Idk what, but I can safely say that the impression you gave me was like shit. You don't even put effort in our friendship. What MORE can I say? Sigh. It seems like our friendship's gone, over. Wu Yao ke jiu. I hope you feel the same way as I do. Just FRIGGIN talk alright?! But there's no point. You're never gonna see this since you always forget a lot of stuff, and my blog address one of them. You're never gonna know how I feel. You're outta my life. I guess that ignorance is your new best friend.

This always happens. Whenever I have a guy best friend, they just stop talking one day and leave my life. First it was R. Then, L. Now, you. Idk why, but I had a feeling this would happen. And it really did. And maybe I'm just meant to be friends with girls only since I can't flirt like SOME people so yeah. Tell me, what should I do? I know that friends come and go. But I can't let you go. I can't repeat the same mistakes I did in previous friendships. I need to talk to you badly. It's just that.. Pride's holding me back, and I feel you should be the one putting in effort into our friendship if you really want to save this. I did my part, now it's your turn. Okay maybe I'll just talk to you one day to ask how life's been -.- Maybe.

And I hope you are better off without me. I hope you won't get pissed or whatever anymore.
I am giving up on you. Idk if I still love you or am used to the pain or over you alr, but one thing I know for sure is that our last chance is blown. Totally blown. Goodbye.



I used to think one day we'd tell the story of us
How we met and the sparks flew instantly
People would say, "they're the lucky ones"
I used to know my place was a spot next to you
Now I'm searching the room for an empty seat
'Cause lately I don't even know what page you're on
Oh, a simple complication
Miscommunications lead to fall out
So many things that I wish you knew
So many walls up I can't break through

Now I'm standing alone
In a crowded room
And we're not speaking
And I'm dying to know
Is it killing you
Like it's killing me?
I don't know what to say
Since a twist of fate
When it all broke down
And the story of us
Looks a lot like a tragedy now
Next chapter

How'd we end up this way?
See me nervously pulling at my clothes
And trying to look busy
And you're doing your best to avoid me
I'm starting to think one day I'll tell the story of us
How I was losing my mind when I saw you here
But you held your pride like you should have held me
Oh, we're scared to see the ending
Why are we pretending this is nothing?
I'd tell you I miss you but I don't know how
I've never heard silence quite this loud

Now I'm standing alone
In a crowded room
And we're not speaking
And I'm dying to know
Is it killing you
Like it's killing me?
I don't know what to say
Since a twist of fate
When it all broke down
And the story of us
Looks a lot like a tragedy now

This is looking like a contest
Of who can act like they care less
But I liked it better when you were on my side
The battle's in your hands now
But I would lay my armor down
If you'd say you'd rather love than fight
So many things that you wish I knew
But the story of us might be ending soon

Now I'm standing alone
In a crowded room
And we're not speaking
And I'm dying to know
Is it killing you
Like it's killing me?
I don't know what to say
Since a twist of fate
When it all broke down
And the story of us
Looks a lot like a tragedy now, now, now
And we're not speaking
And I'm dying to know
Is it killing you
Like it's killing me?
I don't know what to say
Since a twist of fate
'cause we're going down
And the story of us
Looks a lot like a tragedy now