Jay's straight hair

I have never seen this pic of James McGuiness before. Ever. I just happened to see it on Twitter.
Hahhaa giggling like mad now!!

Dear God

Dear God

I know I've got to change. I can't conform to the ways of the world anymore. I should be renewed by you. I'm so sorry Lord. I'm sorry for having a hard heart and being bad Cynthia. Pls help me be good Cynthia and never let bad Cynthia ever come out again. Dear God I pray that you change me. Change my heart. Soften it. Help me correct my sinful ways. Help me treat others better. Yes you've reminded me countless times about what JOY stands for. Jesus, Others, You. Help me to ALWAYS put you and others before myself. Dear God I'm so sorry for all my sins. Pls help me. I repent from the bottom of my heart. Pls help me to be a better person and mend wounded relationships and not just sit there and do nothing about it and end up hurting you and the other party and myself. I'm so sorry for the way I've been living my life. I know I've gotta change. So from now onwards, from this second onwards, I'm devoting my life to you again. Fill me with your holy spirit and teach me right from wrong again. Tell me what is good and what is bad for me and for everybody. Protect me, love me. Protect all of us, love all of us. I pray for your peace in everyone's heart, in my heart, in my soul, in my mind. Lord love us, love me. For without you, I am nothing. I submit to you once again. Help me to have this passion for serving you again. Help me to make an effort. I'm so sorry I've not been close these few days though I'm already free. Help me. Set me free from the bondages of sin. Help me be the shining star, the light of the world, the salt of the Earth for you again Lord. Teach me, guide me, mould me, use me. I promise you, I will try. And I will lean on you, always. Dear God pls forgive me and pls soften my heart again. I pray that I will always be with you. I know that when I take one step towards you, you take two steps towards me, because you love me. And I love you too I want oh so badly to serve you and follow Jesus' lead. You placed many people in my life for a reason to encourage me to pray, lean on you, love you, and serve you. Thank you so much for them. Thank you so much too for the miracles in my life, in everyone's lives. I pray that you pls continue to work miracles, love us, protect us, bless us, lead us and guide us. I was in the wrong, I did wrong, but through your grace and mercy, I am now redeemed and set free. I pray that I will never leave you nor forsake you ever again. Thank you so much for your forgiveness in my life and in everyone's lives. Take my life, take everything of me Lord. Once again, I ask for your forgiveness, grace and mercy to me. Thank you so much, for I know that I am forgiven. Thank you Lord I love you and I will do you proud so that next time and everytime you'll praise and call me a "good and faithful servant" :) Give me one more chance Lord. Thank you. Pls forgive me, and thank you :)

In Jesus' name I pray,
AMEN! :D



She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy with the baby in the backseat
Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline
It'd been a long hard year
She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
she was going way too fast
Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was sooo scared
She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock
And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life
I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on

Ooh, Jesus take the wheel
Ooh, I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel
Ooh, take it, take it from me
Ooh ooh wah ah ooh ooh ooh

Warzone

I give up. I really give up on you. You think just texting me every now and then asking me random and weird questions are just gonna redeem our friendship or whatever we had in the past? Well, it's not. It's too late now. I feel sad and empty without you, but you really do seem happier with your other friends. You seem happier without me in your life. I feel I'm being made use of. I feel that you're just getting closer to me cos of the girl you fancy. Idk whatever happened but it's just too late. If you don't say anything, I'm just gonna shut up and try to pretend nothing happened. Well, isn't that what you seem to be doing too? Idk I feel everything you said was just lies lies lies. It's too late, I repeat, it's just too late. My heart is sinking and feeling heavy while I'm writing this cos I'm letting someone special go but you know what? I don't think you're worth it anymore. I'm gonna get over it and you should too. I'll see you for the last time this Friday and disappear from your life cos I'm never going back to the school (apart from collecting results and Choir). I'm a girl, you're a guy. There's no way one can ever understand the other fully.And that's how we are. I don't understand you at all. So unless you're gonna do some intervention, I ain't gonna do anything, I'm giving up on it.

This song explains how I'm feeling. Being made use of. Except it's not a girl -.-



I can't believe I had to see
The girl of my dreams cheating on me
The pain you caused has left me dead inside
I'm gonna make sure, you regret that night

I feel you close, I feel you breathe
And now it's like you're here
You're haunting me
You're out of line, you're out of sight
You're the reason that we started this fight
But I know,
I just gotta let it go,
I, should've known
I gotta learn to say goodbye now
I throw my armour down,
And leave the battleground
For the final time now,
I, I know.
I'm running from a warzone
In our house, I hate that place,
Everywhere I walk I see your face
Try to erase a memory with a flame,
And hope I never see you again
Standing here, in this burning room,
You know the end could never come so soon,

It's clear to me,
The lies you use,
The ones that killed me ain't hurting you,
So I know,
I just gotta let it go,
I, should've known
I gotta learn to say goodbye now
I throw my armour down,
And leave the battleground
For the final time now,
I, I know.
I'm running from a warzone

I'm running from a warzone
I can't do this anymore
I'm running from a warzone
What are we fighting for?

I'm running from a warzone...

I know,
I just gotta let it go,
I, should've known
I gotta learn to say goodbye now
I throw my armour down,
And leave the battleground
For the final time now,
I, I know.
I'm running from a warzone

Grandma Sim Ah Ma (SAM)

My dearest grandma, ah ma, passed away very peacefully on 29 Oct 2011 at night.

She led a tough life and brought up 5 kids with my grandpa of cos. She's the best grandma I've ever had cos my other grandma (Dad's side) passed away when I was 2 or 3 I think? And yes my cousins and I have played with her, prayed for her and prayed with her, ate with her and did many things with her. We used to go out with her when she was still strong too. I remember her sitting in the car beside me and I was fidgeting around. I was still quite young then. Then I remember playing with her and taking pictures with her when I was Sec 1. I told her I went to visit a lao ren yuan then she said, good, must go and visit more often. She lived with me since very young, so I'm very attached to her. I might have been annoyed with her and secretly in my heart I ask for her forgiveness for words that could've been spoken were not, cos it's too late. I really wish she was here. To tell me that everything's okay, to tell me not to worry, to take my hand and pat it, to laugh with me and to laugh at me for being a scaredy cat again. But I know she's in a better place, hallelujah!

She was fine. Then all of a sudden, one day, she fell ill. Very ill. Until the extent of having to go to the hospital for 2 or a few weeks I think. The whole family visited her, spent days and nights at the hospital. Grandpa went too, and it was emotional for they were reunited after a decade apart. I believe he misses her greatly too. Will keep praying for him and for the whole family. And then it got so serious until she fell into a coma and passed away. But very peacefully. She had the peace of God in her. When the peace of God fell upon her heart, she was very peaceful and didn't frown or curse like she normally did. It was very nice, and very great. Somehow we all felt sad, but yet there's this joy in our hearts as well, for we know she'll be with Jesus, she'll be in heaven, a better place, enjoying and rejoicing with God and praising and worshipping Him! How great is it to even think about it :) Yes, I am deeply saddened by the loss of my dear grandma, but I know she's in a better place, where there isn't any suffering. Thank God, thank God! :D

Ah Ma, I will miss you a lot. We all, the whole family will. In fact, we are already missing you. But we'll meet again someday aye? And we'll be together with Jesus and rejoicing! :D See you soon, Ah Ma. I miss you.

hey you, yes you