You? Me? Maybe not?

When I looked at your pic, it sent shudders all over. Cos you look even better than before. I should prolly stop this. I’m over you. Why do I keep going back and reliving those moments when it felt so right, so good?

I know why.

No actually I don’t.

Or maybe I do ^^

My insecurities. Compared to so many people out there, I don’t have a nice smile, I have a vampire teeth sticking out on my left side of my mouth, and the fact that I’m awake now at 1.30am typing this when I was supposed to go and read my Confetti Confidential book at 11pm that I’m supposed to return to the library later -.- I guess I’ll just read it when I’m meeting Mandy to study later. (YEAH I have nothing to study! So Idk why I’m going! FOR FUN AND LAUGHTER PEACE AND JOY OH YEAH) Even the person you fancied last time was so pretty and has millions of guys chasing after her. That made me feel worse when I found out about it. Even though it meant nothing to me after I was over you, sometimes I still find myself being a teeny bit envious of that. God pls help me not to covet!!

And I always sweat a lot. Even in air-con I can sweat buckets -.- And I’ve just chosen a very sweaty and messy pic of me as my dp on Facebook. Oh dear. IDK WHY I EVEN CHANGED IT IN THE FIRST PLACE. Should I change it again? Maybe. Maybe not.*Procrastination in progress*

Alright Imma get down to the point. Point is, I’m over you. Completely over you. It took like super long okay, like 1 year. And during that 1 year I kept relapsing back. Cos I kept seeing you in school. I guess the phrase “out of sight, out of mind” is really true. But I notice I tend to go to your profile every now and then to check it out. And even though you’re leading another life, preparing for your Os now, and me, waiting to enter Poly and start a whole new life.

Maybe I’m harping on the past.

I just wanna concentrate on being who God called me to be, how He always encourages me by telling me He created each and every one of us in His own image, and how unique and special we are created and how all of us are extremely and absolutely precious in His eyes, using the gifts He gave me for His good and kingdom, letting Him mould me and use me for His good and kingdom, and the fact that I really wanna not screw things up again by listening to God, and to focus on the other person more, because right now, to me, he is the most ideal person I have seen so far. And he reminds me of the guy in Carly Rae Jepson’s Call Me Maybe mv ^^ Just that he’s straight.

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I'm updating my blog! Haven't blogged in a long time cos I'm too pooped to and cos I've been watching How I Met Your Mother and The Big Bang Theory :)

 



So moving on!

I realised how much I've changed since Primary School and Secondary 1, 2 and 3 days. I shall not include Sec 4 days since it was just last year and I don't think I've changed much since Sec 4..

WHY???????????????????????

Idk.

And I've just realised I haven't posted my Os results yet LOL. Okay no one reads my blog but I'm just gonna post it anyways.

English - A2
Core History - A2
Combined Humanities (SS/Geog) - A1
EMaths - B4
POA - B4
Combined Science (Physics/Chem) - B4
Chinese - C5

ELR2B2 (Poly) - 13 without CCA points, 11 with CCA points
L1R5 (JC) - 17 without CCA points, 15 with CCA points
L1R4 (MI) - Same as my Poly score

Sooo... Here you go. Here we are.
Thank God for these results! :D I seriously dk how I got them. I was expecting like 16-18 points. But alas! Thank God!! :D It's really God's grace and wisdom hahah! :)

Then I rmb when it was my turn I was feeling jelly. Then Eunice was already screaming in the hall LOL (Sorry I just HAD to put this in HAHAH it's just too hilarious!!). When I approached Mr Kee and Ms Tong's table in the front of our class in the hall, Ms Tong asked me to sign beside my name and then after that Mr Kee handed me the school magazine and results slip. While he was doing that, he smiled and said "Good job". Then I started to get nervous (okay I was nervous the moment I entered the hall with Yuqing. Partly cos we were one of the last people to get there, and one of the few who didn't wear school uniform). So I turned and took a few steps away from the table. And I looked at the results slip which was hidden behind the school magazine.

When I saw it, MY JAWS DROPPED. First I stared at it, taking in the info. Then, I saw Dana and Yuqing looking at me from a distance. I rushed to them and starting jumping and saying "I only got one C, I only got one C, I only got one C...." Then for no reason whatsoever I started crying -.- And Dayna happened to see me crying then she came over and asked me how was it. I was struggling to tell her that I only got one C, but the words couldn't come out cos I felt a lump in my throat and was already crying. Then she thought I gotten bad results so she hugged me and after that, I just shoved my paper at her cos Idk what to say alr LOL. Then she was like "WALAO YOU CRY FOR WHAT" I really had no idea why I cried -.- Tears of joy I suppose :D

And in the distance I could see my Choir juniors (Xiangwei, Jordan Chia, Siew Ying, Janice, Gillian Tong, Sharon Chong and An Yi. Forgive me if I missed out anyone, I forgot already :X) looking at me, shocked. Cos I was crying and they didn't know if it was good or bad. So I approached them and showed them. Then they all also gave the same reaction. "THEN YOU CRY FOR WHAT" -.- After doing some calculations, they asked me to open the envelope/paper which contained my points. Then ZOOWEEMAMA. I jumped even more and cried even more after seeing the points. Then Loren found me while I was retrieving my bag lol.

The reason why I'm recalling all these is cos I wanna store them in my memory forever and ever, until the day I die.
To show those people who looked down on my studies that I can make it.
To show that I can study.
To show that God was, is and will always be by my side, performing miracles as long as I have faith that He will make everything turn out for the better. Without Him, I would never have gotten these results. All credit, glory, honour and thanksgiving goes to God and God only. This is probably one of the greatest miracles He has worked in my life so far. And I just wanna take a moment to say, Thank You Lord, for everything You have done in my life, esp these amazing, amazing, awesome results! :D <3

And I wanna take a moment to thank my family and friends for helping me and encouraging me in the whole of my life and esp during my PSLE and Os period! :D
PSLE was an ABSOLUTE miracle too!! :D Remember getting my results while holidaying in Korea LOL. I couldn't sleep the night before, and had a bad stomache/diarrohea thingy on that day itself, so my lunch was just eggy soup.. Then I was at this awesome theme park called Everland :) And my stomache acted up again so I went to the toilet. After I came out of the toilet my Uncle said he'd just received news from my teacher (Cao Lao Shi :)) and told me my results. Heh why my Uncle, cos my teacher couldn't get through to my Dad's phone :X

So that's it. These are the memories I wanna store in my head forever :)

Okay gotta sleep already, having a picnic tmr with Eunice, Gillian, Tika and Yuqing! :D And Combined Cell at church after that wooohoooo!! :D

And this song has blessed me greatly! :D

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