You? Me? Maybe not?

When I looked at your pic, it sent shudders all over. Cos you look even better than before. I should prolly stop this. I’m over you. Why do I keep going back and reliving those moments when it felt so right, so good?

I know why.

No actually I don’t.

Or maybe I do ^^

My insecurities. Compared to so many people out there, I don’t have a nice smile, I have a vampire teeth sticking out on my left side of my mouth, and the fact that I’m awake now at 1.30am typing this when I was supposed to go and read my Confetti Confidential book at 11pm that I’m supposed to return to the library later -.- I guess I’ll just read it when I’m meeting Mandy to study later. (YEAH I have nothing to study! So Idk why I’m going! FOR FUN AND LAUGHTER PEACE AND JOY OH YEAH) Even the person you fancied last time was so pretty and has millions of guys chasing after her. That made me feel worse when I found out about it. Even though it meant nothing to me after I was over you, sometimes I still find myself being a teeny bit envious of that. God pls help me not to covet!!

And I always sweat a lot. Even in air-con I can sweat buckets -.- And I’ve just chosen a very sweaty and messy pic of me as my dp on Facebook. Oh dear. IDK WHY I EVEN CHANGED IT IN THE FIRST PLACE. Should I change it again? Maybe. Maybe not.*Procrastination in progress*

Alright Imma get down to the point. Point is, I’m over you. Completely over you. It took like super long okay, like 1 year. And during that 1 year I kept relapsing back. Cos I kept seeing you in school. I guess the phrase “out of sight, out of mind” is really true. But I notice I tend to go to your profile every now and then to check it out. And even though you’re leading another life, preparing for your Os now, and me, waiting to enter Poly and start a whole new life.

Maybe I’m harping on the past.

I just wanna concentrate on being who God called me to be, how He always encourages me by telling me He created each and every one of us in His own image, and how unique and special we are created and how all of us are extremely and absolutely precious in His eyes, using the gifts He gave me for His good and kingdom, letting Him mould me and use me for His good and kingdom, and the fact that I really wanna not screw things up again by listening to God, and to focus on the other person more, because right now, to me, he is the most ideal person I have seen so far. And he reminds me of the guy in Carly Rae Jepson’s Call Me Maybe mv ^^ Just that he’s straight.

Tata!