I'm sorry

I'm really sorry. I didn't ever mean to hurt you. I thought you'd take it lightly.. But I'm not faking it, I'm not giving excuses, but I really laughed because I found it funny. You're my bestie, that's why. If I played your role, would you laugh too? I just found it very unexpected. It's not that your role was ridiculous or whatever, it's because you're my friend. Yes, you'll say that if you're my friend I wouldn't laugh at you, but it's quite natural. You'll say I'm mean but really, when you're friends with someone you'll find it hilarious. And just so you know, I was genuinely shocked and my laughter wasn't fake. There comes a point in friendship when you insult and make fun of your friends and both parties won't feel anything, and that's how I felt. I didn't think it would affect you, I thought you'd just laugh too. When you laughed at me during cross country, I wasn't upset or anything. That's why I didn't understand why it'd affect you. I make fun of my other friends too, but that's not being mean or intentionally hurting them. I just didn't know that it would hurt you like that, and I'm really sorry.

I don't know if you'll forgive me but I'm really sincere with this apology.

I heard you call my name

Ytd night was extraordinary.

Idk why but when I went to bed different songs and different events were playing in my head and my head was just so cluttered. Then I felt I haven't been spending time with God lately. And when I got to bed and lie down, I heard a voice in my head calling my name "Cynthia!". This voice was clear and the moment it spoke, every thought in my mind IMMEDIATELY vanished. My mind just became clear. When I first heard it, I felt it was God and the fear of God came to me. I almost thought I died since my mind was so clear.

Thank you for this wake up call Lord. Idk if I'm thinking too much or if it's You. But the first thought I had when I heard this voice was of You. Thank You so much Lord for waking me up from spiritual sleep before it's too late. Help me to keep the promise I made to You last year. Help me to spend more time with You and ALWAYS put You as my FIRST PRIORITY. For I should honour You, cos You are the Lord my God, and I love You with all my heart, all my mind and all my soul. Your love and grace is always enough for me, and You are supernatural, unfailing and AWESOME AWESOME AWESOMEST GOD THAT ANYONE CAN EVER ASK FOR. You are the One, You are our Creator, You are our Saviour. You are Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Faithfulness and Self-control. You are an all-consuming fire. You are EVERYTHING.

I can feel your supernatural presence just like how I always felt it in the past. I shouldn't harp on the past but then I know that You are here, You are always here for us all, for me. Help me to always want more and more of You, let my hunger and thirst for You never be fulfilled cos I want MORE AND MORE for YOU Lord.

So I'll pray this prayer to you everyday :
Dear God, I pray for protection, peace, security, safety and love from You, to us, among us.
I pray that You help us in our everyday lives, give us the strength, courage and love to carry on no matter what comes our way.
And thank You so so much for everything. Everything you have blessed us with, just simply Everything in our lives :)
Pls forgive us of our sins, help us to break free of the bondages of sin, for in YOUR NAME, darkness trembles and tries to hide. We repent before You today and ask for Your forgiveness.
I pray that You pls guide us, be the shepard in our lives, help us be the shining star for You in this world.
And I love You, we all do love You with all our hearts, minds and souls.
In Jesus' name I pray,
AMEN!! :D

So I'll give my life to You, just take it from me Lord, for I do not know what I'm doing with it but You know what's best for me and have my whole life planned out. Take me, my life, all that I am for the glory of You, Your name and Your kingdom :)

<3



I can hear you 
You're calling my name 
The ocean between us erased 

And salvation 
It pours down like rain 
Flooding my walls till I break 

I give my life to you 
My heart to you 
You're all I need 
Come and make me new 

I abandon 
The weight of my sin 
The weight of my loss and my pain 

Relief swells 
Like air in my lungs 
And freedom releases my shame 

Jesus Christ, take our lives 
We won't waste another day 
Holy God, fill our hearts 
We won't ever be the same

Your love never fails

Your love never fails, Lord! :D

You have blessed us abundantly and I thank you so much each and every single day for keeping us safe, protected, peaceful, happy, and basically for everything in our lives :) I love you Lord <3

Jayesslee concert

So ytd I went to Jayesslee concert woohoo!!!
They really do sound better live than in their vids! This is called true talent :)
I love how they gave credit and honour to God for their success, like they're really genuine about it, can tell they're really nice people! :)
I still have some remnants of the Jayesslee chop on the back of my hand haha.
And thank you Bro, for bringing me to this concert, now I really do know what is true talent :)



This is their breakthrough cover :) And also my favourite song from ytd night :)

Also, congrats to Sam Driscoll and Toh Yifan for performing for the opening act of the Youtube Stars concert!!



And anyways, school's fine, I just really don't like CSA (Computer Systems & Applications). Just gotta endure sigh..
I really thank God for blessing me with nice classmates!! Even though the subjects in school may be a little challenging, but I'm really determined to score very well to get into a local Uni. I aim for at least a 3.8 GPA, and I believe it's possible with God's strength!! :) Life is gonna be alright, as long as you hand it over to Him, for He knows what's best for us :) It's really His grace that life is awesome :)